He's Still The One

Chapter 29 - As Long As You Love Me

Ashley.

Justin's in coma. Coma.

He'll never wake up, won't he?

When mom got the call from Pattie, she immediately booked a flight to LA. She wanted to make sure that Justin is okay, she knows he isn't okay but still, she insisted on coming. She even dragged me along.

I didn't know what to feel. Knowing, your sunshine is in coma right now and there's no guarantee he'll wake up. Needless to say, I cried. I cried for a day. I couldn't lose Justin. I just couldn't.

We were on our way to the hospital right now considering mom had been so persistent in going. She looked shell shocked when she found out about Justin and I still am clueless as heck.

We technically arrived 45 minutes later. The LA traffic wasn't helping too. 45 antagonizing minutes. 45 minutes of a close nervous breakdown courtesy of my mom. We almost got here in an emergency van if she hasn't calmed down.

Thank god that didn't happen.

As we were running for our lives, I meant as mom was running for her life towards the ICU, I couldn't help but feel nostalgic. It feels like I have been in Justin's situation before. I just couldn't remember when or how it happened.

As we got to the room, we saw Scooter, Ryan, Chaz, Fredo and Pattie outside. When they saw us, Pattie and mom hugged as if their lives depended on it. I didn't know they were best of friends. I feel so out of place right now.

I could clearly see that all of them were crying and not eating and sleeping. They look so tired and their face lacks colour. It's hard seeing people like this.

When Pattie saw me, she gave me a small smile and squeezed my hand, it's as if she's telling me, that it'll be okay.

Jeremy went out as mom got in, leaving me with them. I just sat there in silence and waited for my turn. Ryan and Chaz looked shocked to see me, I don't know why. Or maybe they probably don't know me.

Why would they know me, anyways? I am just a fan of Justin.

Mom got out with tears in her eyes. I hugged her and started comforting her. I didn't know Justin meant so much to her.

It was my turn and the nostalgia is worst than ever. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

As I went inside, I felt broke as I saw Justin lying down on the hospital bed, lifeless. Tears start to fall from eyes and I moved closer and sat on the chair beside the bed.

Here goes nothing.

"So, hi Justin. I-I am not sure if you remember me, but we met at your concert in Stratford. I was one less lonely girl? I even told you you were my sunshine. My name is Ashley, not that you can remember it when you wake up. I remember things now. I didn't forget things. I remember everything. I just faked amnesia so that I can forget you and so that people would stop asking me about you because it hurts a lot when you left me. You didn't even bother to say goodbye. I get that it was your biggest dream and I was happy it came true but still, I feel gutted. Like my whole world shattered into pieces. When you left, a part of me was missing. Why did you leave me, Justin? You were my whole world, Justin. I loved you. I was afraid to tell you that because you maybe won't reciprocate the feeling. I don't like the feeling of rejection. So I kept it to myself. And I regretted it. I regretted it so bad. I should've told you when I had the chance. It did hurt me seeing you date other girls. You were happy with them. I wanted to be the one that makes you happy but I couldn't. We were miles apart. So I did what I had to do. I had to move on and start anew. I started seeing you as my idol and not my best friend and it worked. I have gradually moved on, until I found Tyler. He is so much like you. He reminds me of you. He makes me happy, Justin. I love him but not as much as I love you. I know when you wake up, you won't remember what I told you but it was worth the shot. I hope things will turn our way and eventually find ourselves like we were years ago. Things may have changed now but you'll still be my cocky egoistic bestfriend, Justin. That'll never chance. We may not get a shot at our own infinity but at least, you know I have you and you have me. I love you, Justin. Always."

I wiped my tears and went out with such a parched throat due to crying and talking to him. I finally told him the truth, the truth that even my mom is oblivious about.

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and at the same time replaced by another weight.

There are a lot of questions lingering in my mind right now. I guess I'll have the answers when he wakes up.

Whenever that is.

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A/N:

First of all, I want to apologize for not updating last week for the late update this week. It's all because I am so busy with school and everything. Things to do here and there. It's tiring and I couldn't manage to squeeze in an update. I am sorry for making you guys wait.

Anyways, let's talk about this chapter. The truth is finally out. Thoughts? Reactions?

The story is not yet ending. There will still be a lot going on, I can assure you.

But til then, keep the votes up. Thank you guys and happy early christmas!! Love you.

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