He's Still The One

Chapter 42 B - What Do You Mean?

Justin.

The flight to Stratford was pure agony. I can't help the tears that keep streaming down my face. Upon boarding up unto this flight, I prayed like my life depended on it. Ashley is my life, basically it did.

"Ashley is going to be alright. Don't worry." Mum reassures me as she squeezed my hand. I sure do hope so, mum. I heaved a sigh and looked out the window. What could possibly have happened to my princess?

The plane went to a halt and I hurriedly went out, of course, politely. But of course, hurry isn't a thing a in the customs. They are doing things slow on purpose. An hour or two after, we were out.

Kenny drove to where Ashley was located. When I noticed we entered a hospital, right then I knew that Ashley isn't alright. I sobbed so hard. I didn't even care about the paps crowding me right now. I ran towards the receptionist and asked her what room was Ash in, she said the ICU on the left wing. That caused me to sob even more. I couldn't feel my legs when I was running. As soon as I reached the ICU, the tears kept falling. I don't know how or why this happened. But I don't want to lose the girl of my dreams, the love of my life.

Brenda hugged me as I sobbed into her arms. I couldn't afford to lose her. I just couldn't. Seeing her lying there, lifeless, broke my heart. If there's anything I could do, I'd do it senseless. I'd do everything for her.

I cried for what felt like hours until I have no more tears left to shed. I sat down on the waiting area, unsure of what to do. I just want her to gain life again.

A doctor then came a few minutes later, informing us the current state of Ashley. He said the collision of the car had a great impact on her that it cause minor brain damage. But her heart's still beating. They just put her in coma to reduce the risk of her having panic attacks.

"Collision of the car? What?" I asked the doctor, unsure of what is going on.

"Yeah, Justin. While Ashley was on the way home, a truck came in contact with her car causing her to come flying through the rear window of the car. I just got a call from someone who witnessed it that Ashley was in the ICU and that happened. I don't know if it was on purpose or not but the police is already investigating on it." Brenda said, as her voice cracked.

This feels like déjà vu. What Mum told me about what happened to Ashley came true. What if she's going to lose her memory and forget everything?

"But she's going to be okay, right? She's going to remember me and everyone, right?" The doctor looked at me with worry evident in his eyes. I held back my tears.

"I-We're not sure. The collision did cause brain damage. I'm afraid she's not going to remember everything when she wakes up. I'm sorry." I could hear Mum and Brenda faintly sobbing.

"W-What do you mean? You didn't answer my question regarding on whether or not she's going to be okay." The doctor shook his head and sighed.

I excused myself and went to the parking lot and in my car. I drove to where I usually let out my emotions.

I sat by the ledge, overlooking the riverbank. The river looked calm and glowing, due to the moonlight. I stared at it for a while, contemplating everything that is happening in my life right now.

I am happy and sad at same time. I am happy because everyone finally accepted me for who I am and what I want to be. The media scrutiny is finally simmering down. But along with it came a big obstacle, Ashley. She means so much to me. She's my everything. Why did this ever happen to her? Why her? What if she wakes up and not remember me and everyone? What if she's not who she is when she wakes up? I really can't afford to lose her. Not her, not anyone.

I looked up and talked to him.

Help me. I don't want to be a wreck again. Ashley means a lot to me and I don't want to lose her. Please make her feel better. If this is your way of making me guilty for what I have done in the past, then I am truly sorry. I thought I didn't deserve this but now, I do. I don't know what to do. Help me. Please. I love you.

I can feel a tear fall down my cheek. I looked at the river again, with my eyes full of tears. I wondered how could the river be so serene, contrary to what is going on with my life. my life's been a mess, a mess, even I, myself, couldn't clean.

I heaved a long sigh.

When will all the suffering end?

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A/N:

but Justin, God gives battles to his strongest soldiers. You just have to learn how to hold on ❤️

Hey hey hey. What is up? sorry I wasn't here for the past weeks because school, stuff, you sure do know what I am talking about.

Too much plot twists? I apologize. I have planned this story ahead and I guarantee you, this will end peacefully :)

Only 3 chapters left and an epilogue.
Thank you guys for your support.

Love you always,
G