Fall On Me

3.4 Runaway Rex

▪️Acacia POV▪️

It's that day of drowning, here again, the cold wash only I can feel.

I don't want to get up.

I don't want to move at all and at that moment it takes all the strength I have to make a good choice, to reach for an oxygen tank and take a breath that's my good mood music playlist, it gives me the thoughts I need, that I am someone worthy of love and joy.

The first tracks aren't easy, they show the tears in my soul, but without that how would the soul stay alive? So I let them call me and bring the salty rivers.

This is how I stay alive.

This is how the universe reaches me and tells me good things are coming.

It's been a couple of days since Nick died but to me, it only seems like yesterday, I finally started to accept Stephen's death with the help of the team mostly Nick, it was like a wound was ripped open all over again while another was created but just as deep was placed next to each other creating one big wound, it didn't help that the nightmares have come back just as I was getting rid of them, Cutter's death has torn me apart losing the only other person I could talk to who would understand what I was going through and a father figure for me since I was sixteen and since I didn't have a relationship with my father.

The building has only just been cleared so we are now able to get back to work as soon as we're back in I cleared out Cutter's office the best I could so I can work on the artefact, there's still repairs going on as the sound of metal is echoing throughout the ARC.

I currently sat at the desk in Cutter's office starting at the artefact with Cutter's words on how important this is, tears dropping one by one down my cheek which has been constant for the past few weeks.

"Acacia," said a voice brings me back from my thoughts looking to my left to see Sarah.

"Oh" I gasped quickly rubbing my eyes to hide my tears "hey" I whispered.

Staring at me for a few moments in worry before walking further into the room.

"Let me help you, I'm an archaeologist I know how to deal with stuff like this," she said softly.

Showing her no response she continues.

"I can clean it up a bit, try to see what's underneath," she tells me.

Exhaling deeply and looking up at Sarah I nod my head and stood up before gesturing for her to sit down on the chair as she smiled softly at me in a motherly way.

I went to move before turning around as I had a thought.

"Listen" I spoke quietly as I came closer "nobody can find out what we are doing here".

"Absolutely" she nodded.

"At least till we know what we are dealing with" I nodded at the artefact which she quickly nodded at.

I decided to stay with her as I know Sarah isn't the one to keep on asking questions she respects the other person.

"Any luck," Jenny's voice asked which I didn't hear enter.

Like me, Sarah also didn't hear Jenny enter but she turned to face her.

"To soon to say, once it's cleaned we should have a better idea" Sarah sighed.

Jenny didn't reply only turned to look at the matrix which I haven't managed to clean just yet.

"Any chance of putting this back together?" Jenny asked as both me and Sarah walked forward to stand beside Jenny.