Fanmade|TK

TWENTY SIX

JEON JUNGKOOK

i felt my throat getting tied up by the feeling of nervousness when we stood in front of our manager's studio. it was so scary, now that we really were about to tell him about us.

namjoon hyung knocked on the door, and it got opened by our manager, who was mit his 30's already. he asked us in and we sat down on the couch he had in there.

"so what did you want to talk about?" our manager asked us, with a smile. it relaxed me a little, but still not completely.

i helplessly looked to taehyung, who looked at me with the same expression, before namjoon spoked up, who probably saw our reactions.
"okay ehm, just rhetorically, what if someone of us falls in love?" he asked, taking small steps before mentioning the real thing.

our manager widened his eyes, "it'll be hard. our entertainment doesn't refuse you to have girlfriends and to date, but it must be kept a secret. your whole relationship and the identity of the girls you choose."

i felt a pang in my heart by the mention of girls. constantly girls. why is a male expected to be only interested in girls, as long as not proved otherwise?

"and, of course we have to check your girlfriends if they are trustworthy enough to keep this relationship a secret too. so... who of you is the one who fell?" he asked with expecting eyes.

my body tensed as i moved a little closer to namjoon.

"well, it's two of us."

„two?! woah, who is it? the girls must be very special." he looked at us with wide eyes, waiting for an answer. girls. my hand started to tremble.

"so.. jungkook and taehyung and they fell in love...

...with each other." namjoon ended his sentence. i closed my eyes, afraid to look up or move. i felt my heartbeat speeding up and all i wanted to do right now, was snuggle up onto taehyung and never let go.

"so.. what you're telling me is, that you two are not dating girls, but each other? you're gay?" he asked, voice stern.

i looked down. "pretty much, yeah," taehyung answered, as i felt him moving closer to me, his body now touching mine. the difference was instantly there, feeling taehyung near was giving me the reassurance i needed.

"rm, i respect you, but a joke like this ain't funny." i still didn't dare to look up to him, his voice also got slightly angry.

"hyung, i respect you too and would never use something like that for a joke. taehyung and jungkook love each other, we came to let you know about that," namjoon said with a calm voice. that's why i always look up at him, his calmness is mesmerizing.

our manager now stood up.
"have you two thought about your image? what will people say if they find out you're a couple plus that gay?"

"th-they won't find out, we'll hide it. we'll try to stay as-

"how are you going to hide a relationship, taehyung? you are surrounded by cameras everywhere you go! we always knew you two were something else. we always tried to make as less interactions between you two as possible and now? you are a couple! i'm happy for you that you found love, but it just lays too much weight on the companies shoulder. people were always suspicious about you two and whenever questions came in wether there's more between you two, we didn't hesitate and said no. and now, now you're a couple and we have to lie to everyone and to even hide you more from the camera. you can't be a couple."

my eyes filled with tears, but on the inside i felt anger by his words. i stood up and slammed my fist on the table. "just fucking continue! just continue like before, cut out scenes in where we might get a little suspicious. try to not let us interact with each other on camera. just continue your damn shit, but you have nothing to decide for us in that case. we fucking feel for each other and you can't change that! out image cares me a shit, when it comes to taehyung! but for the sake of you and this company of ours, we'll stay hidden! we will try our best to get this weight off of your shoulders-

"jungkook stop. think about the agency, think about your members. if just a little word about you two being in a relationship slips out, everything will be over. what will the people think about you-

"I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK, GOD DAMMIT!" taehyung jumps in, tears frustratedly rolling down his cheeks.

"would you leave your wife when someone tells you to, because your image might get ruined? well i don't give a fuck on my image, if i can't be with jungkook!"

"taehyung!" my eyes widened when i saw the man raising his hand. he was about to slap my boyfriend, but before he could do anything, i grabbed his arm and stopped him.

"don't you dare lay one finger on him!" i said as my full body was filled with anger now. i crushed his arm, which made him scream in agony, before i got pulled back by namjoon. i immediately turned to taehyung to hold him tightly into my arms.

"enough now," namjoon turned to our manager. "we came here to just inform you over their relationship, not to get your homophobic opinion on the two. you have a lot of rights deciding for us, but not if it comes to who we love! and what if they are gay? does it matter, are you that old-schooled? as a matter of a fact, half of us is gay, just so you know."

i widened my eyes and looked and hyung startled... what? who else is? well, i know yoongi hyung is pan, but... gay? besides me and taehyung?

"to be honest, i'm quite disappointed, i knew you'd most likely reject, but i still had some light hope where you'd just accept the boy's love. help, how'd you try to separate two people who love each other? doesn't that sound too ridiculous?" namjoon hyung continued and i looked at him in awe.

our manager became quiet and looked down.
"i'm going to talk with bang sihyuk about this." he said with a stern voice and seated himself. he looked at us and i just glared at him. i was so fucking angry, i just wanted to punch him right in the face.

"well, i'm going to talk about this with him too. you always were too strict and harsh on us and now you were about to slap taehyung. in my position as the leader of the group and as taehyung and jungkook's hyung, i will act against you. we've been sick of you since a long time now, but we endured it, because we tried to see the good in people. i am going to request a new manager for our team, someone who cares about our feelings." namjoon said still with a calm voice.

"i'm doing this for you! i want you to be happy!"

"how di you think you'd be able to make them happy, if you separate them from their loved one?" hyung answered, signing to me and taehyung. i was still holding him in my arms. "the only way you can make us happy, is retreat and just fucking accept their love!"

he took a deep breath, not sparing the shocked manager a glance, as he turned to us.

"jungkook, taehyung, let's go." i grabbed
taehyung's hand and namjoon took mine, as we left the room with teary eyes. namjoon closed the door behind us and that's when it just ended. taehyung and i bursted into tears and hugged each other tightly. i held onto him firmly and he pressed his head against my chest, hugging me back just as tightly. taehyung was shaking and it made me even angrier.

i side-eyed namjoon, who looked at us with a bright grinning face. i held my arm out to him and he joined our hug.

"thank you hyung, thank you so much." i said, well i tried to say, as sobs escaped my throat whenever i opened my mouth.

"jungkookie, don't mention it, i would do it again." he looked between me and taehyung and patted our heads.

"i'll go now, yoongi messaged me he needs me in the studio. you okay alone?" taehyung and i nodded, before namjoon left us.

after a while of crying with each other, i managed to smile at taehyung. "just as you said, in the end everything will be fine."

taehyung chocked out a little chuckle, before he grabbed my collar and pressed his lips on mine. it was a short kiss, but it told more than words ever could.

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have i told you how much i love namjoon?