Fanmade|TK

twenty one

TAEHYUNG

It was D-Day. My hands felt clammy while getting ready for dinner with my brothers and Jungkook. My stomach was flipping and twisting whenever I thought of what was going to happen in less than a few hours. It weren't doubts that kept me restless, rather 'what-if' questions that don't even make sense.

For example 'What if one of them is against it?' It makes no sense. We rarely talk about sexualities or something because it wasn't a topic we even deal ourselves with. But I know that not one of our members will have something against what Jungkook and I have. Just look at Jin and Jimin who were rather happy when they found out.

Other questions are... 'How do we tell our manager? How do we tell the company? Will we even tell them? And what about our fans?'

Best and only way for all of this to work is of course to keep it a secret and not tell anyone. But being surrounded by someone watching you 24/7 makes it almost impossible to hide a relationship.

I sighed, trying to shake these thoughts away with the trembling breath. Today is a good day. A happy day. Today will make a lot of things easier.

I unbuttoned the last button of my shirt that I had previously buttoned up. Clothes just look better on me when they are loose. Also, this way it felt less suffocating.

And there should be no room for feeling this way today.

Once I deem myself ready, I walk downstairs and catch one of the two vans waiting. A perk of living in a dorm together is that we always also drive off together. Means, you're never in a van alone. And
this time I wasn't alone again. When I opened the door to the van, Yoongi was already sitting there.

And so was Jungkook.

For some reason I had to blush. Just because he was there and I was going to sit next to him and maybe also because he looked so dashingly handsome,  it was unreal. The most attractive man on this planet and he was mine.

"Come in, the other van is already filled," Yoongi said and I followed suit, taking the seat next to Jungkook.

We drove off.

And during this ride, it was rather quiet, not awkward quiet, rather anticipated-quiet. The nervousness seemed to reach its surface again and I needed some kind of reassurance so I slowly, secretly and without Yoongi's notice,
took Jungkook's hand in mine.

I felt his body react to the unexpected touch and the next thing I knew, my hand was engulfed in his warm one. I looked at him to catch him trying to hide a smile. That made me smile too, though I tried to hide it as well. Our hands were hidden between us, another little secret scrapped off of the big one.

I felt a lot more relaxed with his touch. Actually, we were lucky that Yoongi was with us, because he was almost drowsing off into sleep again.

And I noticed, so I felt bolder when I leaned my head on Jungkook's shoulder and closed my eyes to forget the nervous feeling for a moment.
Jungkook's head was against mine without any hesitation. Compared to me, his whole posture and aura were so much calmer.

"Are you alright?" He whispered softly. Hearing his silent voice so close to my ear— I loved it. I hummed and nodded softly without opening my eyes.