Two Directions - A 1D Fanfic

Chapter 1 - The Vocalist

You look ugly
I looked at myself in my full length mirror, my black hair was in a messy bun on the top of my head, I was wearing a white turtleneck sweater with black sport leggings and galaxy converse on my feet. A knock came at the door, without removing my focus off putting on my mascara I called over my shoulder.
"Come in!"
Zayn, my twin brother, stuck his head in the door before coming in.
"You ready to go?" He asked
I nodded before putting away my mascara wand and looking at myself in the mirror one last time. Zayn walked in and stood behind me.
"Becca you look fine, you don't even need the makeup."
He's saying that to make you feel better, he doesn't care about you
It's been a year and his voice is still in my head, I shook my head trying to get rid of it before turning and following Zayn to outside of our apartment block. I climbed into the front seat of my car, checking my mirrors before starting the engine, Zayn climbed into the passenger seat and I started driving. Zayn was rechecking his appearance nervously, I sighed.
"Zayn you look fine."
My twin brother, younger than me by seven minutes, Zayn Malik was auditioning for XFactor this morning and he was a nervous wreck.
"Are you sure Bex?" He asked, tweaking his color nervously
"Yes!" I implored "You'll be fine, I promise."
He nodded and I parked the car in the parking lot, turning it off before climbing out the car, Zayn followed suit. I locked the car before pocketing the keys and walking towards the entry, Zayn following behind me.
"Come on, you'll be fine Zayn."
He nodded before walking inside and walking up to the registration desk, the lady looked up at him.
"Name?"
"Uh, Zayn Malik."
She nodded before looking at her computer and then looking back at him
"It's about a five minute wait."
He nodded and came back over to where I was standing, he started pacing nervously as he a waited for his name to be called. I grabbed his hand and forced him to look me in the eyes.
"You will be fine. Your Zayn fucking Malik, you got this."
He nodded, looking better before hugging me tightly.
"Thanks Bex, what would I do without you."
"I don't know..." I trailed off
Well I mean he almost found out around a year ago, and he doesn't even know it.
He doesn't need you, nobody needs you.
I breathed in and out, trying to fight the panic that comes whenever I start thinking about that time, Zayn pulled away, concerned in his brown eyes.
"You good Bex?"
"I'm fine." I replied shakily
Zayn went through my breathing exercise with me, knowing there's no way I would wait in the car for him to finish. Once I'd calmed down enough the lady called his name, he gave my hand a quick squeeze before following her into the audition studio. I waited anxiously, wringing my hands, praying that he would make it. All of a sudden two teenagers barrelled into the room, breathless and panting.
"I won!" The girl boasted
"Doesn't matter, I'm still older!" The boy shot back
The girl humphed as he walked over to the reception, giving his name which I didn't catch before returning to his female companion. He whispered something to her and she nodded before he disappeared towards where the toilets were I think. The girl scanned the room before he eyes landed on me, she smiled and waved, I gave a miniscule smile and she came towards me.
She's confident, unlike you, worthless slut
"Shut up!" I whispered to myself
The girl had brown hair which went a little past her shoulders, she had green eyes that were sparkling with mischief, she wore glasses. She was wearing a hooded sweatshirt, trackies and high top converse. She finally arrived at my side with a smile.
"You auditioning?" She asked
"Oh no. I'm here waiting for someone." I replied
You can't sing
"Me too!" She replied, sticking out her hand, "Ambria Styles."
"Becca Malik."
I shook her hand, we started talking for a while. Suddenly a hand landed on my shoulder and I jumped almost slapping Zayn in the face.
"Oh my God Zayn! I'm so sorry!"
"It's fine Bex." He replied
"Oh Ambria, this is Zayn, my twin brother, Zayn, this is Ambria."
He nodded and raised a hand in greeting, she smiled at him in return.
"No way! I have a twin brother too! His name is Harry."
"What a coincidence" I replied "Nice meeting you Ambria but we better get going."
She nodded and waved as Zayn and I walked out the building and towards the car. I unlocked it and climbed in, starting the engine. Zayn climbed into the passenger seat, clicking in his seatbelt, I started driving towards our apartment block. I looked over Zayn who looked extremely worried.
"Zayn, are you okay?" I asked
He snapped out of whatever daydream or thought trail he was in and faced me.
"I'm fine, but um..." He started
"But um... what?"
He sighed and I became increasingly concerned, I tilted my head, asking him what's wrong without saying anything. His eyes were serious and pleading at the same time.
"Have you thought about getting a therapist or something? You know maybe they could help with your panic attacks." He asked
I sighed, I had thought about it but that means I'd have to tell them everything and I don't want to, besides my life is so messed up it's hard to know where to begin.
"Zayn I'm fine."
No your not, your life is pathetic
He nodded and I parked the car in our normal parking spot, before climbing out and entering the apartment block. Zayn walked up the stairs ahead of me and I watched as he smiled at his phone.
You don't deserve him
Finally, we can actually agree on something for once.

AN

This is my new FanFiction! Just so you know the writing in italics is what the voice in her head says to her.

Hope you enjoy the storyline. This story is mainly written because my friends begged me to so we'll see how it goes.

I'm sorry if updates are slow but I'm juggling several other books at the same time.

Keep reading and I'll see you in the next chapter

Belle