You Deserve To Be Happy.

[18] Mental Break Down

Carina

After the shift at the station, we went to my house and spent the rest of the day together, cuddling.

It's weird...I'm still excited after this shift...and I don't know why...

That night, I tried, but I couldn't sleep..
I've been there, watching Maya and thinking...all the night.

A few days later..

Maya

It's been a while since Carina worked with us at the station.

These days she's been a little weird with me and we didn't see each other...
I worked a lot, and on the phone she seemed sad.

But she says to me that she's fine...

Today I have the day off, and she's at work, so...
I was thinking about surprising her at lunch.

But when I get to the hospital and ask for her, they tell me she's not working today...
So she's not here.

What the hell is going on?

I try to call her, but her phone is off.

So I get in the car and run to her house.

I have a bad feeling...

Carina

I haven't slept in days..
I'm depressed...
I don't even want to eat...

I don't want to worry Maya about me, so I didn't say anything to her...

I was supposed to go to work today, but I took a few days off...

I don't understand what's happening to me...

Maybe it's too soon, but I'm a doctor, and there's something wrong with me...

Maybe it's the same disease of my father?

First he took Andrea, and now me.

It could be...

I just want cry....

Someone's knocking on my door.

I open the door...and when I see Maya suddenly the tears I was trying to hold back, come out, and there's nothing I can do about it...

Maya is really worried, she comes in the house and immediately hugs me...

M-"Hey baby...come here, what's going on?"

I keep crying on her shoulder...wetting her shirt a little...

M-"Why didn't you tell me you weren't at work?"

C-"I didn't want to worry you..."

Maya

M-"Now you want to tell me what's going on? I did something wrong?"

C-""No, Maya...you didn't do anything wrong, you're perfect...
It's just...
I don't know...
I can't sleep, I don't want to eat or going out...
I wouldn't want that...
I mean, maybe...

I stop her because I know where she's going with this.

M-"Absolutely not!
Don't even think about it!
You don't have your father's disease, maybe it's just a bad time, we all have them, but it'll gett better!"

C-"How can you be so sure? I mean, it could be...first Andrea and now me..."

M-"I can feel it...but if you want to be sure we can take a doctor's appointment.."

C-"I'm afraid, Maya..."

I've never seen her so small, so fragile...
And it breaks my heart...

M-"I know baby, I know...but I'm here with you, whatever it is, we'll face it together!"

I tell her, then I pick her up and give her a really big hug and a lot of little kisses.

C-"I want to get a m.e. but I need to talk to Dr.Bailey first...would you like to come with me?"

M-"Sure, baby, anything you want."

So after a little cuddle we get ready to go to the hospital.

I'm trying to stay positive...
But I can't stop thinking...

It can't be that...
It doesn't have to be that...
We didn't have enough time...

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