Hard To Love

Healing

Y/N POV

I hadn't been on social media since the accident, and I was honestly dreading it. I guaranteed there would be some upsetting shit, so Gee and I both decided to take a break from it for a bit. 

We've both slowly been getting better, which is a plus. We're both eating again and he threw out all of the alcohol in the house, which I was really proud of him for. We were healing more and more every day, but the pain would still always be there.

Today we were leaving for a little getaway. We rented a cabin up in the mountains for a week. Just like our honeymoon, it was only us around, but maybe even more secluded this time. I was beyond excited for it. I was excited for new, happier memories.

"You ready, doll?" I heard Gee ask in a cheery voice.

"I think so!" I turned around and smiled at him. It was nice to feel okay again, and it was nice to see him okay again. "Let's blow this popsicle stand."

He chuckled and followed me out of the room. He knew I was still hesitant about cars, so he held me in the back while Frank drove us to the airport. 

"You're going to take a lot of pictures for me, right?" I chuckled at Frank's random question, but agreed.

"I'll spam you with photos. Like, every ten seconds." I answered, causing him to laugh harder.

"Hey, rude. I want your attention too!" Gerard whined. 

"But, I must send Frank pictures! It's a matter of life or death, Gee!" I gasped dramatically. The banter continued the rest of the way to the airport and it was honestly the first time since the accident that being in a car didn't make me sick to my stomach.

Once Frank parked, we got out of the car and got our luggage out of the trunk. Our security team was already here waiting for us, so we said a quick goodbye to Frank and went inside. I already figured there would be paparazzi, but I wasn't guessing there would be this much. We weren't on social media, how the fuck do these people know everything?

"Y/N, Gerard, how are you feeling now?" One reporter asked, to which I answered a quick 'fine.'

"Gerard, is it true you almost died?"

"Y/N, what was your reaction when you found out you lost the baby?"

"Is it true Gerard starting drinking again?"

"Maybe it's best this happened, considering your career."

Oh fuck no. This bitch did not just say that.

"What happened to me and my family is our business and our business only. Leave us alone." I growled. Security blocked them off before they could ask anything else. I was pissed, and I guarantee Gerard is too.

"I'm going to kill them one of these days." Gerard whispered to me, causing me to snort.

"Same. We can be the new Bonnie and Clyde." I smiled.

After we got through the security and baggage check, we got on the plane and to our seats in first class. I pushed everything those moronic people said aside, I wanted our getaway to be fun and relaxing. Fuck them.

I'm not gonna lie, I slept almost the entire trip. I only woke up during a little bit of turbulence, but otherwise, I slept on Gee's shoulder. When I woke up, we were landing, and his shoulder was drenched in drool.

"I'd say I'm sorry, but that was a damn good nap." I said as I stretched. 

"You looked pretty peaceful." He giggled. 

We already had a rental car waiting for us, so once we got our bags, we went straight to the car. We didn't need more people bugging us, especially now that we're here.

"Okay, so the plan is to stop and pick up some food for the week so we don't have to leave, got it?" Gerard told me as he drove towards the nearest grocery store.

"Sounds good to me. Just hopefully people will leave us alone. I don't have my special kneecap stealing knife with me." I joked. We both laughed at my twisted brain.

We arrived at the store maybe twenty minutes later. We bought stuff for dinners, different snacks, and a shit ton of drinks. WE skipped the booze, thankfully, and settled on some sparkling grape juice instead. Or, what I like to call it, fake wine.

"Okay, is there anything else we need? We have the basics, we have meats and fruit, we have every snack known to man, and we have enough drinks for an army." I looked over our list one more time before we went to check out. Luckily, we went completely unnoticed by everyone here.

We paid for our stuff, then took the ridiculous amount of bags to the car and somehow managed to stuff them in along with our things.

"I'm really excited for this, you know that?" I spoke up as we left the parking lot.

"So am I, love." He beamed. The car ride was silent after that, but it was comfortable. Both of us were a little jet lagged, but we made it to the cabin safely.

"Alright, let's unpack and check this shit out, yeah?" I hopped out of the car and started grabbing bags from the front seat. I grabbed as many as my arms could hold because fuck second trips. Gerard laughed at my stubbornness and got the suitcases, then unlocked the door for us.

"Holy shit." I gasped as we walked in. The place was enormous and the views from the living room windows were spectacular. It's nothing like I've ever seen before. "Gee, this is gorgeous, holy shit."

"Yes, it is." He replied, looking down at me.

"You're so fucking cheesy, but I love you anyway." I ruffled his hair after I set down the bags, then quickly pecked his cheek. "Let's go see the rest of the place!"

We kicked our shoes off and began our journey. As we roamed around, I decided I never wanted to leave here. I mean, the place has the biggest jacuzzi tub I have ever seen, a hot tub, and a heated indoor pool along with all the views? Fuck yeah.

"Are you sure we can't just live here?" I asked him, still amazed.

"Unfortunately, we can't. But we will definitely have to come back in the future!" He wrapped his arms around me and stared down into my eyes. "I really fucking love you."

"I really fucking love you more." I smiled as he pulled me in and kissed me softly. "Now go get naked, it's hot tub time!" 

I ran over to the hot tub, dropping various articles of clothing along the way. I was too damn excited for this shit to care. Once I was completely undressed, I climbed over the edge and sunk into the hot water, sighing in content as the heat soothed me.

I didn't open my eyes until I heard him slowly sink into the water next to me and sigh as well.

"This is amazing." He moaned.

"You're amazing." I smirked.

"Hey, now. I'm the cheeseball here, thank you very much." I rolled my eyes at his sass, "Oh, you're gonna pay for that."

I squealed as he pulled me from my spot and onto his lap. He kept a firm grip on my waist so I couldn't get away.

"If this is what I get every time I roll my eyes at you, I'm never going to stop rolling my eyes. This isn't much of a punishment." I smirked as I noticed his pupils dilate.

"I'll punish you, don't worry." He growled seductively.

This is going to be a great fucking week.