Hard To Love

Test

A/N

Yeah, it's been a while, hasn't it? I've been dealing with a lot lately, but I'm gonna try to start updating again. To be honest, I wasn't even planning on updating any of these again until a specific comment on the last chapter of this inspired me to. So thank you, starsun2000, if you see this.

Also, this won't be as long as some of the others and I'm sorry for that, as well as my absence. 

Y/N

All sorts of thoughts swarmed my head as I waited for the results; three minutes is a lot of time for 'what ifs'. 

What if I'm not pregnant? What if I'll never get pregnant again? What if I lose this baby too? That'd surely tear my marriage apart, wouldn't it? What if I am pregnant? Will we be good parents? Will we still perform while I'm pregnant? Will Gee still love me when my stomach is the size of a watermelon?

The ding of the timer set on my phone brought me out of my thoughts. Gee heard the alarm and came rushing into the bathroom, clearly eager to see the results.

"Can you look first? I'm scared." I pouted.

"Why would you be scared? Either way, I love you more than you will ever know." He replied as he brushed a stray hair behind my ear. "But if you insist, I will look first."

I watched him walk over to the sink and I couldn't help but follow. I was scared, but I couldn't not look. I wrapped my arms around Gee's waist as he picked the test up.

"It's-"

"Positive," I smiled, cutting Gee off, "It's positive!"

Gee put the test back on the sink before letting me jump into his arms. I hadn't felt this much excitement in my entire life, this much hope, which is something I thought I lost after the accident.

I didn't realize I was crying until he was wiping the tears off my cheeks. I had never seen him smile so widely before, so I knew he was just as excited as me. 

"I will not let anything happen this time." He spoke as if he were reading my mind.

"Neither will I." I smiled, the hurt of losing our first child still worming it's way into the happy moment. "I love you."

"I love you too." He replied softly before pulling me into what felt like the most meaningful kiss we had ever shared. 

"Oh! We need to tell the guys!" I exclaimed as I pulled away, causing him to giggle. I picked up my phone and left the room, Gee following me as I made my way towards the living room.

I dialed Frank's number as I sat on the couch, Mitch cuddled up in my lap almost immediately. I put the phone on speaker as it rang so that Gerard could be in on the call as well. After the fourth ring, he finally picked up.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Frank. We have some important news!" I cheered.

"You bought a dog?"

"No-"

"Why wouldn't you buy a dog? Dogs are so great!"

"Frank-"

"They're like four-legged people, but with a lot more fur and a lot less responsibilities."

"Frank!" Gee and I yelled.

"What?"

"What we've been trying to tell you is that-"

"I'm gonna be an uncle?!"

"What? How'd you know?" I asked.

"Oh please, it was obvious."

 "It really was, wasn't it?" Gee chuckled.

"You're going to name it Frank, right? Fran if it's a girl?" 

"Uh, I don't think so, I'm sorry."

"Lame. Alright, I'll let you call the others because I guarantee that's what you were going to do next."

"Alright. Talk to you later, rat."

"Bitch."

"Jerk."

"Well that was interesting." I giggled as I hung up. 

The next two calls went almost exactly the same, minus the random dog rant. Mikey and Ray could tell just as easily as Gee and Frank, which was surprising to me. 

Everyone was very happy for us, but we still had a lot of decisions to make. For instance, how would we go on tour again? We just released an album, there's no way we can just cancel everything and there's no way in hell I'd skip out on this.

"I know what you're thinking and we'll figure it out when the time comes." My husband sighed as he wrapped his arm around me. "Let's just take this time to relax and celebrate. What do you want to do?"

"Honestly, as weird as it sounds for a celebration, can we just order a pizza and watch movies? I want to be lazy and the bean wants pizza." I answered, rubbing my belly gently as I mentioned the little life growing inside of me.

"Doesn't sound weird to me. What do you want on it?" He asked.

"Um, a lot of cheese, no tomato sauce. Pepperoni, mushrooms, banana peppers, jalapenos, and black olives. Oh! Bacon too. Yes, bacon." I replied.

"Okay so I'll get my own separate pizza then." He said, scrunching his nose as he did.

"That's okay, I'm eating for two now anyway."