Yours, A.

... final year...

Not edited!
6th July, 2018.

Dear D,
I can't even believe that it's been over a whole month since I wrote to you! Oh goodness. I feel so bad. Unfortunately, I forgot you lol, in my sister's house and I've been so busy that I couldn't even come back for you, lol. I actually intended on coming here next weekend as the semester is over, my last exam is on Tuesday and guess who's in final year?! Yep! Me! Ah, I'm leaving this undergraduate life soon, Alhamdulilah and even though I'm not sure what I actually want to do yet, I just want to stop going for classes.

Well well, I have a TOTAL GREAT good news! Guess what?! Why I could be here when I have an exam on Tuesday?! My sister had BABIES! 2 whole babies! Lol. And great, it's a boy and a girl and I'm super happy. I'm angry cause they didn't call me during the labor, they only called me when she was about to be discharged earlier today but my dad said he asked them not to, as he knows that I over think and he didn't want that for me. True though, I probably would have imagined my mum in the labor room all through.

Honestly, even though I don't admit it a lot, and even though I never actually met her, I totally miss her. I know that things would have been different with her here. I would have been asking her for advice, and I would have been her best friend. Oh, and she would have told me what to do with these crazy feelings I have for Adeel!

Anyways, no negative energy, we have TWO new babies in the house and I'm totally staying here this weekend! I'm going to school to revise on Monday and then, write my exam on Tuesday, and check out from the hostel that same Tuesday cause I just want to carry the babies!

The house is full as everyone is here though, so on another note, maybe I'd just carry the children and run away. Haq haq. Joking. But maybe I have to stay at home this week before I move here, by then, these external aunties and mothers would have gone.

I can't even believe it. I still feel like I'm dreaming. 2! 2 babies! If one is sleeping, I can carry one haq. And my break is for like 2 months, perfect timing, eh! I'm actually really excited and happy, and I'm so grateful. I was really worried about her as I didn't want anything to happen to her. Especially considering all the stress and pain she had to go through when she was pregnant.

When I heard the news, I came straight here, and she was in her room. I asked her if it hurt and she said "Oh Attiyah, yes but carrying my children immediately after made me forget all of the pain", and then she was crying. I can't believe it, I thought all this emotional stuff was supposed to stop after her baby?

Anyways, me I have been carrying the babies even in their sleep. I think apart from prayer and right now, I've been carrying the babies the whole day

I keep saying that I'm the babies only aunty when people ask me, as my sister's husband doesn't have any sibling. My dad gave me a look that said I must be willing to die and I quickly changed it to "adult" aunty haq.

Okay the space is gone. But I'm happy. Regardless of everything that's going on in school with Muhammad, I'm glad.

Yours,
A.