Yours, A.

...smarter than both...

October 10, 2017.

Dear D,
Well, I finally decided to fill in every 2 days, so that I have at least, two pages. That 1 page thingy was killing me! It was limiting so much of what I wanted to write, and I decided to be smarter than both Muhammad, and a book!

I wasn't happy yesterday, I wasn't happy because I got one of my test results- poetry analysis, and I had 55%. How? I thought I knew what I was writing during the test, I was expecting like 80% or something. I felt really bad, but I'm fine now! Alhamdulilah.

I got a call from the other Attiyah! I met at the bookshop (remember
?), and she was asking if I wanted to do a book hangout with herself and her friends. As much as I wanted to say no, because I don't even know who these friends are, I said yes! How could I resist it? I'm a sucker for food! -and books! It's the day after tomorrow, and I'm so glad cause that's the next day I'm supposed to fill you anyway ;)! So, I can tell you everything that happens there.

Today, I decided to do some flower research and stuff, but it's like I have to find something else to do in future! Oh, and my dad came visiting (with my stepmom), but honestly, I'd rather he came alone, it would have been easier for both of us. I've already accepted her as my dad's wife, but not as my mother. I didn't know my mum, but nobody could replace her imaginations in my head. I believe she should know that already, she's known me since I was a little girl!

My sister couldn't make it though :(. She said her husband was returning from his work place and she wanted to get stuff ready at home. And I'm like oh wow, you got married last year and you're already ditching me for him?! Come on! I was one of the people who encouraged her to go on, not like she wanted to get married so early in the first place.

I found a new interest, by the way. And that's...solving riddles! I know I know, it sounds childish and stuff, but I got this app from Hadeeyah and it's just so addictive! I even removed 30 minutes from my sleep time, just to play it, I know, unimaginable! It has very silly questions like "Why did the chicken cross the road", Answer - "So it can get to the other side! I know right! What?!!! But I like it nevertheless.

I started my self development journey today too. Humainah sent me some podcasts, to meditate, self reflect and try to identify my bad habits. I'm actually becoming older and I still act like such a baby! I wrote out my time table and plans, and I start tomorrow, in Sha Allah.

I got to carry a baby today too! At the mosque, and I was just so glad! Her name is Mutmainah. I just walked up to her and said, "Your baby is so cute", can I carry her?", And she said yh, u cn.

Yours,
A.