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Sunday, 5th November, 2017.
Dear D,
I know I know, I was supposed to fill yesterday but I was really tired when I remembered, and then I received Adeel's call and slept off right after.
Friday was Alhamdulilah, I went for Jumu'ah but I didn't pray cause I'm off at the moment, and I felt so left out. However, I watched this video from freshly grounded that says that if you do an act of worship habitually, and for some reason you can't, because you would have done it on a normal day, Allah gives you the reward. If that isn't pure love, I don't know what is.
Talking about pure love, Muhammad said he thinks I'm growing feelings for Adeel, but that's not true...or is it? I mean, I know we are growing really close and stuff, and I'm actually feeling attached slowly, but that doesn't mean I like him, does it? I honestly don't want to. I don't "like" boys. My heart is made of stone, like I said, and it has to take much more than Adeel to break it. Maybe Muhammad is just being jealous! I have to stop talking to him, I don't want to like him, or fall for him. And if I already like him, it needs to go away.
Oh, I think I know what I'm buying for Muhammad! A wristwatch, and a pen! He told me that his favorite wristwatch fell and it doesn't work anymore, and he looked so cute and sad when he told me that I decided in my heart that I'd definitely buy him one. And he's obsessed with pens, I mean, pens with cases, signature pens.
Oh, yeah, where and how did I meet him? Normally, if he isn't busy and I'm in school, he picks me from my faculty and we go to Jumu'ah. That's what happened in this case.
Anyways, guess whose story is in the top 50? Me! I couldn't believe my eyes when I saw it, it was like a dream, but Alhamdulilah, I'm so glad. It makes me sincerely happy. And well, I studied A LOT on Friday, I've finished my "to study" and I even did more, lol. So I didn't study yesterday, or today.
Yesterday, I went for the employability event with Kawthar, and I learnt A LOT. I saw some of the people I'm familiar with and it was really interesting cause I was able to catch up with my them after the event, I had so much fun, and I was able to talk about things that matter to me like my spirituality and BOOKS!
Today, I went for the MSSN event alone, why? Because Kawthar left much earlier, as she's an executive, and she left meeeeeee. Zaynab and Humainah were there later though, but I sat alone to get the most out of the event. I was able to learn new things and stuff, and my half siblings called me because they thought I was going to go home. Sorry to burst their bubbles.
I realised that my mood swings aren't as bad as before, as I haven't had them in a while now, which is quite unusual. I'm really glad though, I don't like crying for no reason or snapping at people who have done anything to me.
That's basically all for this weekend.
I was going to call Adeel after filling this but not anymore, I should stop talking to him all the time.
I'm sure he'd call me though, but I'd make it clear to him that I think we are getting to close and we should stop talking all the time.
Yours,
A.
