Yours, A.

... emotions should be expressed...

October 4, 2017.

Dear D,
I had a fight with a friend today, or maybe not a fight, an argument. She said some things to me, and when I said I didn't like them, she said I was taking it too serious. Honestly, I was confused, and I wish I had just gone home. She said I was too reactive, sensitive and emotional, and I'm again, confused, aren't emotions meant to be expressed? Emotions should be expressed.

After trying to understand her for a few minutes, it was obvious that she wasn't even trying to explain things to me, and just when I felt that tears was gathering in my eyes, I blinked quickly twice, and walked away, to the mosque. I took it one step at a time, then two, then three, and then I was walking really fast, like someone was chasing me.

When I got to the mosque, as I was just about to break down, I saw Kawthar, and I just pulled her into the ablution centre. Before she could fathom what was happening, I was already crying in her arms. She must have been confused, for she has never been speechless in my presence. She settled with running circles on my back until I had stopped crying. When I was done, she nudged me to wash my face, and then, she asked "Have you prayed?", and I shook my head. And so, we prayed together.

That's something about Kawthar, she always makes me feel better, even when she doesn't say a word.

Yours,
A.