14. Happy

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Whatever I do

How much ever I try

The feelings inside of me

Never subside

I try to make them happy

I try to set myself free

I try and try and pretend some more

But I never do feel free

Tied to a chain of sorts

Happiness in my life, condemned

I'm thrown against a wall of glass

And broken and sore

Will I ever be normal again

Will I ever breathe

I ask myself these questions over and over again

Because no more in Him, I believe

He left me off to fend for myself

In the worst situations of all

They say he helps those who help themselves

But can't he see, I'm shattered from all those falls?

Cut and hurt and bruised and pained

The agony speaks it all

But with the fake smile plastered on my face

Who'd rather try to push the wall

Its gone, I'm done

Beyond the emptiness

The curtains are drawn

I won't give up

I won't fall back down

Cuz I'm here to stay

Let it be known

The malignant smile

The superficiality

The single malt whiskey

And the smeared kohl in my eyes

They all speak a story

Another life to be told

The things I'm going to take away

Let the saga unfold

And the stage is set

The actor in me is ready

For one last time

Let me take away your breath baby

And when I found you from the sea of millions

I finally set us free

As I shot you down

You finally made me happy.

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