Beautifully Chaotic

Chapter 10

I wake up and groan as light hits my eyes. I stretch out and rub my eyes beforw sitting up.

I notice Dylans side of the hed untouched and my stomach clenches. He didn't come last night.

I swing my feet over the bed and get dressed for the day. What had I done to piss him off?

I look in his office only to find it empty. I move downstairs and find him sleeping on the couch. "Really?" I say hitting him with a pillow causing him to jump awake. His eyes alert and ready for attack.

"What the hell?" He growls. "What the hell is right. What did I do to piss you off so bad that you couldn't come to bed?" I growl back as anger courses through my veins.

The emotion on his face wipes away as he sits up. "Drop it Rosie." He says darkly. I let out an unamused chuckle and roll my eyes.

"Fuck you." I grind out as I turn and walk out the door slamming it so hard it breaks in half and falls to the floor.

I break off at a run hot angry tears spilling down my cheeks. What did I do?

I fall to my knees at the lagoon and let the tears fall freely. My breathing is coming out roughly and I soon begin to hiccup.

I feel a cold wet hand touch my knee and meet the gold eyes of the siren who had helped me before.

Her eyes hold concern and question. I smile at her as I wipe away the tears. "I'm not normally like this. I don't know why I'm crying so much. We have fights and I normally don't overreact like I am." I say softly to her.  The water splashes against my bare knee as she pulls herself a little out of the water. She places her hand on my lower stomach and looks at me with knowing eyes and I can tell she just confirmed my worst fear.

"No." I breathe out. She nods and smiles at me softly. She takes my hand and images of the hellhound flash through my mind. "Thats why." I confirm and she places her hand on my cheek with sympathy in her eyes.

She stays with me at the edge of the water for most of the time before another siren comes to get her. She waves goodbye to me before dissappearing into the water.

I take a breath and stand up trying not to think of everything that has been happening and will happen. I begin to make my way back hoping things will get better.

I was wrong.

"Rosie." I hear Dylans sharp tone as I break the tree line and I easily ignore him.  "Rosie." He snaps again and grabs hold of my arm. "Let go." I growl. "No." He bites back his eyes hard.

"Let me go Dylan Summers or I'll make you." I say my voice dripping with venom.

He frees my arm and I continue to walk. "Rosie, let me explain." He says catching up to me causing my pace to quicken. "I gave you more than enough time to do that, but you pushed me away. It took me running off in tears to finally come to me to explain." I growl out.

He flinches at my tone and hurt fills his eyes. "You were crying?" He asks. "Wipe the hurt from your eyes. You have no right." I say as I walk into the house past the broken door.

"Look, please, let me explain." He begs. I stop and turn towards him my eyes blazing with anger. "You have five minutes." I say.

"I heard what Amara had said." He confesses and my face pales. "You had no right listening in our private conversation." I whisper harshly.

"Well, I did and I know about it." He tells me and I can't help but laugh. "You find out I'm pregnant and you shut me out? Make me sleep by myself? Yell at me?" I growl out.

"I didn't know how to feel. Now is not necessarily the right time for something like this." He says back just as harshly.

His words slice through me like a hot knife and I take a step back. "You think I don't know that? That thing is after me! It wants me dead Dylan, a baby isn't what I wanted right now either. I don't need more stress and more people to worry about. I have enough already! Did you not consider once how I was feeling? How utterly terrifying this is to me? That we created another being that will look up to us and will have to raise?Then to have my mate shut me out for thag exact same fucking reason!" I yell as fire spreads through my veins and I feel my eyes shift.

"You never told me any of this." Is his lame response. "For fucks sake Dylan, I didn't know until yesterday, even then I wasn't sure. You had no right." I scream as anger runs through me and I shove him back hard. 

He stumbles and looks up at me. "Consider my feelings next time Dylan, instead of leaving me alone." I growl causing his head to lower and his eyes fill with shame and regret. 

I go upstairs leaving him standing alone on the living room. I slam the bedroom door shut and lock it before stumbling to floor as my strength leaves me.

Why was this happening to me? Everything was fine before I moved here. I was normal. I was as happy as I could be.

I lean my head against the bed as I back up against it and bring my knees to my chest as I sit on the floor. I flick my finger and the balcony doors swing open bringing the evening breeze with it.

I get lost in the swaying of the treetops and the bright colors dancing in the sky as the sun sets.

I run a hand through my hair and find myself chewing anxiously on nail. We'll be okay. We have to be.  I can't lose him too. I won't. Stress civers me like and uncomfortable and thick blanket.

I feel a sharp pain in my stomach causing me to double over. I let out a groan as I get on my knees and my stomach clenches as a wave of pain hits again and I close my eyes as my head gets dizzy. Blood spreads down my thighs and I feel hot tears roll down my cheeks.

All of those words I said about not wanting a baby replay in my mind. "No..." I cry out softly as a wave of pain hits me once more and I let out a frustrated scream. I know what's happening. I am having a miscarriage.

"No..no..no.." I cry out as my head gets light. I notice my hands are now red and shaking as I curl up willing the pain to stop. Not just the physical pain.

The door breaks open and I hear Dylan curse. He picks me up gently. "Rosie?" He asks softly as he moves quickly as he pushes a piece of hair out of my face.

I cry harder as he rushes outside and to the pack doctor. "Hold on baby." He says as the door to the small hospital opens. "Guess you got your wish." I mumble through the tears before I feel my head grow heavy and my vision fades.

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~scarletbride30