Beautifully Chaotic

Chapter 11

I wake up to the beeping of machines this time and everhtging comes flooding back. I don't want to open my eyes.

I hear a door close and notice two different presences in the room. "How?" I hear a deep voice growl. I can only assume it's my mate. "The Luna is under a great amount of stress. Did anything happen where that stress was elavated more?" I hear a soft female voice ask. "Yeah." I hear him growl before a crashing sound is heard.

I open my eyes slowly and notice the distress on their faces. "So stress is what caused the...miscarriage?" He asks. "That among other things." She replies and I take in a breathe.

I didn't know how to feel. It wasn't thw right time for a baby and we both said we didn't want it but did we really mean it?

I feel empty and uncertain. "Luna, do you know where you are?" I look to see Dr. Alexandra walk toward me. I nod and I notice Dylan look at me with concern. "Do you know what happened?" She asks me softly and I nod again.

"I'm very sorry Luna." She says and I just look at her. "When can I go?" My voice comes out scratchy cahsing me to close my eyes.

I open them and Dylan hands me a cup of water. "You lost alot of blood, but you'll be able to leave as soon as I start your discharge papers." She replies. "When will that be?" I ask. "Now." She tells me. "I checked your vitals and everything seemed to be ok."

I sit up and notice I'm in a pair of shorts and a sports bra. No hospital gown. My body still aches slightly as I swing my legs over the side of the uncomfortable hospital bed.

I feel Dylan rush to my side. "Don't." I whisper and he backs up a look of hurt in his eyes.

I wanted to cry but I wasn't going to. I take in a breath and stand up on wobbly legs. "Please be careful Luna." The doctor advises.

I ignore her and keep moving. I open the door and walk down the long hallway and straight out.

I walk home ignoring the pack members as I do. My heart hurts, my body hurts, even my mind hurts.

I step into the house, a hole still gaping where the door should be. I make it to the couch and sigh. No one needs to know about this.

Dylan walks in a couple minuets later. "Rosie." He says softly. "No one needs to know about this." I tell him as he sits in the armchair next to the sofa. "Ok." He replies as I curl up on the couch. "Rosie I'm so sorry, I didn't mean that I didn't want a baby. It was the timing that was inconvenient. I was an ass. An inconsiderate selfish ass and I am so sorry. I had no right to be mad or ignore you. I love you so much. I know the apology is late and ill timed. I was planning on telling you all of this before..." he trails off and I wipe the tears from my face.

"I forgive you." I say softly. I needed him. I hated fighting with him, he's my mate and fights or not, not matter how big, he's mine.

He moves to the couch with me and pulls me into his side. I instantly feel better in his touch. "I'm so sorry." He whsipers. I put my face in his chest and try not to cry. "Me too." I say softly.

We stay like that for quite sometime before Axel comes in. "I apologize alpha, but Alpha Thomas and Luna Amara are requsting to enter the pack." He informs. "Let them in." He tells him.

"I'm going upstairs." I tell him and he nods. "It's customary for the luna to greet them as well." Axel says. "Fuck customs." I growl causing his head to bow as I slowly make my way upstairs.

"Rosie." I look down to Dylan before I reach the top step. "I love you." I answer for him and a smile flutters to his lips.

I shut the door and look around the room. I make my way to the balcony and look out at the world. Who knew such a peaceful place could hold such evil and sorrow.

I hear a car pulling down the gravel and make my way back inside. I shut the curtains and lock the door from the inside.

Voices can be heard even without my enhanced hearing. There is no way I am going down there.

I lay on the bed letting the fluffy blanket hug my body. I've never felt this way before and Dylan knows that. I can feel his worry through our link.

I push away the feeling and sit up. I grab the remote and turn on the TV. I scan theough the channels until I find a movie that interests me. I see Twilight pop up and snort. "Yeah right." I mumble.

I eventually just end up turning it off and getting up. I move to the shower and turn it on with a flick of my finger as I get undressed. I stink.

I get in and start scrubbing. I scrub sk hard my skin is red and stinging. Like I can somehow scrub away the memories and pain.

I get out after about an hour and wrap a towel around my body. A knock sounds kn the door followed by Dylans voice. I flick my wrist and it's unlocked. "They are going to be staying for a couple days." He tells me. "Joy." I mumble as he shuts the door. "Amara was asking for you." He tells me as he unbuttons his shirt. "I'm not in the mood." I mumble as I pull on shorts and one of his shirts. "Thats what I told her." He says as he pulls on his sweat pants.

We climb into bed and I notice it's only around three PM. "You're more important." He says as reads my mind.

I flush red and nod as I curl into his side. "I'm glad we aren't fighting anymore." I say softly. "Me too baby."

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~scarletbride30