Foreign

Chapter 46

I feel a bit sad when I see Hero walking away. It truly is the end of an era. We've moved on, both of us.

"How about dinner tonight?" Josh asks with a smile.

"We can't go very far. You have a busy day tomorrow!"

Josh frowns.

"Yeah.. I guess," he pouts. "Can I take you to dinner in the hotel restaurant?" He gives me puppy eyes and I can't refuse.

"Okay," I smile and give him a small kiss.

"I know it's not a very fancy first date," he says.

"You took me to Australia, I'd say that counts as an impressive first date!" This makes him smile and when he looks into my eyes my heart skips a beat. I have a good feeling about this. I think I made the right choice.

Because I want to take things slow, Josh drops me off at my room to take a shower. He's a perfect gentleman.

"Okay princess, I'll pick you up at eight," he says.

"Okay." Suddenly I'm nervous. It's been a while since I've done the whole dating thing. Hero and I never really dated in the traditional sense of the word dating. We shared a dorm room, we were together all the time. We also had sex before we were even talking about dating. I think Josh senses my nerves.

"It's okay, we'll take it slow, I promise," he says to put me at ease. He puts his finger under my chin to lift my head up. When I look into his eyes he takes my head in his large hands and presses his full lips on mine. He gently sucks on my lower lip before presses his tongue inside. This kiss has more passion than the one we shared at the lake.

"Woa, nice boys don't kiss like that," I say remembering the line from Bridget Jones.

"Yes, they bloody do," Josh replies and because he's quoting Mr Darcy, I know it's okay. This is okay. We're a good match.

I put on some music before I jump in the shower. When I sing along to every word of every song I realise I'm actually happy. After my shower I pick some lacey red underwear just because it makes me feel confident. Since it's a date I decide to match my underwear with a red dress that is also made out of lace and fits the curves of my body perfectly. I dry my long brown hair and put on some red lipstick. I spray some perfume and put on my red killer heels. I look at myself in the mirror and realise it's been too long since I've dressed up. You can still see I've lost a lot of weight but my face has got it's colour back. The dark circles under my eyes are gone. I don't look haunted anymore. I look young and alive. And I've got Josh to thank for that.

When I open the door I see that Josh dressed up too. If we walk in together, dressed like this, everyone will know. Everyone will realise that I've moved on from Hero to Josh but for some reason I don't care. This film is done in a couple of weeks. Who cares what these people think? Josh takes my hand as we walk into the restaurant and as I predicted, they all stare. I just concentrate on the girl who's escorting us to our table. When I finally sit down, I dare to look around. People hastily look away and start their conversations again. Conversations about us, no doubt. Suddenly my gaze crosses Hero's. I was scared to see anger or maybe hurt and I'm shocked when I realise that his eyes show pure hatred. It only lasts a second though and then his face goes blank. He stands up and leaves the table without finishing his food. He probably only just got his plate since it's still completely full. Melany doesn't know what's happening and turns around. She spots us and rolls her eyes. She turns around to finish her meal alone. Some girlfriend...

"Should we order a glass of champagne?" Josh asks. "We have something to celebrate." I turn back to him and his smile is so sweet that I almost melt.

"Of course!"

Josh orders some champagne and we toast on our first date.

*H E R O*

I slam the door of my room shut and look round for something to break. I punch the wall and scream. It's all so messed up. I messed up so badly. When I saw her at the lake today something inside me snapped and when she walked in with Josh just now, it broke me. I will never be able to fix this anymore. She looked so sexy and confident and it's all because of him. Just the thought of it makes me scream again.