Foreign

Chapter 39

*C H A R L O T T E *

That afternoon I'm finally back on set. Josh has some scenes with Melany and some alone. It's great to be back on set. I've missed the rush, the anticipation and the hard work. I'm born to do this and I will prove it. Melany scowls at me all the time and makes bitchy comments but I can take it. I'm too grateful to be back. Also, both Josh and Greg really have my back, that helps. Everything runs smoothly and my work with Josh this morning paid off. He's doing great! Josh is a great actor so maybe I have to watch some of his films tonight. Melany keeps stroking her stomach in an effort to taunt me. I try to look away. I can't think about that little human growing inside of her because it will break me all over again. I still can't believe something of Hero is growing inside of that belly. Between scenes I take the time to talk to Greg about this week's schedule. If we make some changes I'm pretty sure I can make sure we have no more delays and we may actually win some time. Greg is grateful and trusts my instinct. He gives me the green light and I plan a meeting with Scott. I also ask him to take me through some of Josh' scenes. It would help to know what his view is. That way Josh and I can rehearse them perfectly. It will win us some more time. I suggest that both Hero and Melany get someone to work with as well.

We have an early day tomorrow so everyone wants to go to bed early, much to my horror. I still can't stand being alone. Deciding to get over Hero isn't exactly the same as actually being over Hero. How do you get over the first boy you ever really loved? Do you get over him completely or is there some part of you that will always love him? After dinner I have a meeting with Scott and I take him through my plans with the schedule. He's all for it, which is great because this gives me more work. We have to notify everyone, we have to make new call sheets, we have to make sure all sets are ready... and the funny thing is, Scott is almost as happy with the work as I am. Seems like he's trying to forget about something too.

"Scott, is something wrong?"

"No, why?" he looks up from his laptop.

"You're not yourself lately. You're very quiet, you're always alone and you're not the happy dude anymore. What's wrong?"

He doesn't reply.

"Hell, you almost look as depressed as me!" I say jokingly but when he looks up I know that's spot on. He is as depressed as me!

"Wait, is this about a girl?"

He blushes.

"Who is the girl?! What happened?!"

He sighs.

"You're not letting this go, are you?" He says.

"Nope!"

"No one. Nothing happened. She just.. I don't know I thought we had something special but she cheated on me with this other guy. And now there is no way back... I don't want to talk about this."

I try to talk about it, I need more info. Why is there no way back? Did she marry the other guy or something? But Scott doesn't say anything else and I just let him be. I feel bad for him. I know how he feels. It's funny, I never knew he had a girlfriend! I can ask Brody about it tomorrow. He knows Scott pretty well.

After my meeting with Scott I try to keep myself busy. I take a hot shower, I open a bottle of red wine and I watch one of Josh' films. It's actually very good. It's not a romantic film so it's perfect. I didn't know he did films with actors like Anthony Hopkins! Wow! After the film I'm still pretty restless so I put on some Big Bang Theory. I love falling asleep with the sound of the television. It calms me down. I must have fallen asleep during one of the episodes because the familiar nightmare wakes me up. Will the nightmares ever stop, I wonder? I'm too restless to go back to sleep and I go sit on my balcony. It's a clear night with a full moon. I see the lake in the moonlight and I decide to take a walk. Maybe that will help me to go back to sleep. I put on some shorts and a hoodie. I'll probably get really cold but I don't care. I sneak outside and the night air does feel chilly. I'm a bit scared when I walk to the lake. There are no other lights but the moonlight and I've never really liked the dark. It's also very quiet. The only thing I hear are my footsteps on the crisp grass. I stop at the edge of the lake and look up at the moon. When I was younger I wanted to be an astronaut and the moon never lost its appeal. It's so beautiful and mysterious. I wish I could go there some day! Or just go into space. Space is cool too. I once saw one of Elon Musk's satellite trains and it was the coolest thing I had seen. My heart stops when I hear footsteps behind me. I'm so terrified that I actually stop breathing. Can someone enter this estate at night? Who can be out this late?