written in the stars

chapter 29

I do not own the 100. I am just a fan writing fanfic.

Clarke's P.O.V.

I thought I had seen every side of Bellamy Blake, that was not true. As soon as the two words left my mouth a mix of emotions seemed to rush over him. I was still shocked but his reaction seemed to wash it all away. "Like twins." I said, looking at him dazed. He's eyes fell down to my stomach, and then back to my face, he looked torn between wanting to freak out and wanting to crush me in a hug. "I- we-" i shuddered past my words unable to form a coherent thought.

Raven was the one to do anything that made sense, she flicked off the machine and took the contraption off of my stomach. The thudding noise faded into silence as she stepped back to give us some space. Bellamy's face was lit up with a light i rarely got to see. I didn't know what to do, i was terrified. But excited and to be honest panicking. There was a thousand emotions racing through my head. Two babies, double the joy but double the danger. Before i could say much Bellamy wrapped me in an awkward hug.

"I love you, and I am going to love these children. I promise to protect and care for you, you're my family." He said pulling back so I could see his eyes. I saw his joy, his happiness but i also saw his fear. He too was afraid of the consequences of another child. I smiled quickly, "i love you too". He lightly kissed my cheek, this lips felt warm against my skin making me shiver. Raven and Bellamy both caught onto my shivering. And Raven went to get a blanket. I rolled my eyes, "Raven, i'm fine. I don't need a blanket!" I called after her but she kept walking. Maybe she hadn't heard me or more likely she was ignoring me. I heard Bellamy chuckle beside me, two against one, fine.

I looked at Bellamy, like really looked at him. I had memorized his face long ago, but ever since he found out about the pregnancy there had been hard set dark circles under his eyes. No matter how big his smile was he couldn't hide that he was worried. He wasn't paying much attention his head was in a book. Some one about poetry, I'd never seen before. I reached out and tucked his hair out of his eyes. He looked up at my touch and gave me a small smile. "What are you thinking?" I asked, wondering where his head was. He closed the book and turned to completely face me. He took my hand in his and looked into my eyes.

"Well, as you know when my mother had Octavia my life changed. I mean literally the day I helped bring her into the world, after my mother passed out- when it was just us, I realized nothing would ever be the same." He paused before continuing, where i wasn't sure. "I was the first real brother on the ark," his lips smiled briefly, "i was just thinking how our children- there going to be the first of so much. They will be the first twins, the first siblings to be born on the same day, the first children on the ground. They will be so special." He finished with a look to the ground like he couldn't believe any of what he had just said. I squeezed his hand and he looked up at me, "they will be special, because they're ours." I said smiling as his eyes lit up a little.

Raven cleared her throat, not wanting to walk in on a overly personal moment. She neared the cot where i laid and placed a blanket by my feet. "You might get cold later due to the blood loss." She said trailing off a bit at the end. "I don't know why I am telling you this your more of a doctor than I am." She laughed and I smiled, she had helped more than she knew. She perked up a bit, "hey, you two have a few visitors who have been dying to see you. Should I go get them?" She asked looking from me to Bell. I nodded, they were probably worried sick. With that Raven was off again and Bellamy and I were left alone once again.

I sat up once she was out of view, Bellamy almost jumped out of his seat. "What are you doing?" He cried. I wanted to laugh at his worry but I knew he was too stressed out for a joke. "Relax. I am just sitting up. Could you grab me some more pillows?" I asked. He turnned around a grabbed some from his cot. He moved to help put them behind me so I was a bit more upright. As he went to sit back down I touched his wrist, he froze just infront of my face. I took the opportunity to kiss him. Quick and sweet but I left my lips burning. He pulled back quickly, "we can't, we shouldn't." He breathed heavily. "Says who?" I asked. He sat down distancing himself from me. "Clarke, i- I want to, believe me. But I don't want you too move too much. I don't want you to get hurt" he said and i knew he was right but i still just wanted to touch him. I had been so scared, I just wanted him close.

"We need to talk," he began. I hated that sentence it never lead to anything good. "What are we telling the others, they're going to have questions?" He asked. It was a reasonable question and we couldn't hide this forever. I breathed in a large breathe, calming myself before I agreed to this. "We tell them the truth. They need to know." I said nodding. Bellamy agreed. He looked at me, i knew him well enough to know he had more to say, "and I want you to tell your mom." He said. I didn't expect that. What? I hadn't even told her much about our relationship, she would freak out. I knew I had to tell her adventually but I hadn't planned on it being so soon. "Bell-" i started. Before i could even argue he stopped me, "Clarke. We dont know enough about this. She is your mom and a doctor. She needs to know." He was right, but i didn't like it. Sighing in defeat I caved, "fine, I'll tell her." He leaned over and kissed my forehead.

Bellamy's P.O.V.

I pressed my lips against Clarke's forehead. I was relieved she was okay and less stressed now that she agreed to tell her mom about the pregnancy. I pulled away and sat back in my chair. Clarke was laying back against the pillows and her eyes were closing. She needed to sleep but I knew telling her that would only make her mad. So instead I kept my mouth shut hoping she'd sleep on her own.

Once Clarke drifted to sleep and i saw her body relax I let myself relax. My head fell back and I stared at the ceiling of the dropship. I'm gonna be a dad. The thought circled my head. I'm going to be a dad and have two kids. A smile pulled at my lips and a closed my eyes. I thought about two little kids running around in the woods. I saw Clarke's blonde hair and my brown eyes. I heard giggles and little hands picking flowers. Slowly the images got fuzzier and the laughter faded away as i fell asleep.

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I woke up to a large bang and a string of curse words. "Fuckin hell" to be exact. I opened my eyes and searched for the source of the noise. My eyes landed on one Raven Reyes picking up a box of medical supplies. She looked over her shoulder as I moved to get up, seeing me her head fell in embarrassment. "Sorry Blake. I was hoping you slept through my mess." She said picking up a package of bandages. I walked over to her and knelt, helping her pick up the supplies. "Since we landed I'm not much of a heavy sleeper." I laughed. Raven nodded and I knew she understood how tiring trying to survive could be. "I'm just happy Clarke's still asleep. I didn't try to save her so she could die from exhaustion." She said shaking her head.

I looked to Clarke who was still thankfully asleep. God knows she needed rest, but trying to get her to take a break was like trying to bathe a cat. Raven must have caught me looking at Clarke because she intrupted my thoughts. "So, you're gonna be a dad. How does that feel?" She said raising an eyebrow. "Terrifying, but also really good." I said looking at her. Raven smiled and grabbed the last of the supplies. She picked up the box and placed it on the table nearby.

I stood up and looked ot the dropship door, it was dark outside. "How long was i asleep?" I asked turnning to face Raven who only bit back a grin, "only about 3 hours." She teased. 3 HOURS!! my expression must have given away my suprise because Raven stiffled a laugh. "When I got back with the others you and Clarke were passed out. We agreed to let you sleep." She explained. The others? Oh, God. We fell asleep before anyone could visit us. I felt a pang of guilt. Raven again as if reading my thoughts continued to speak. "Don't worry, they knew you two were tired and I didn't say anything so you still have your suprise." I wanted to face palm. We had slept the whole day away and the one time i had got Clarke to agree to tell the others we had fallen asleep.

With a sigh I decided not to worry over something I couldn't change. "So, i guess Clarke is sleeping in the medbay tonight?" I said looking towards Clarke who was still passed out on her cot. Raven rolled her eyes. "Well I was going to have her moved to your cabin but since she is asleep like the dead, yeah. She is sleeping in here. And don't pretend like you won't be i here right next to here Bellamy." She said and of course she was right. I would be sleeping in a cot beside her all night.

Raven excused herself and i felt bad for keeping her all day. I knew she would be rushing off to see Jasper and maybe eat dinner. Dinner. I wondered just how late it was. Although I wasnt hungry I hoped Clarke was okay. I contemplated waking her but i knew that would be a mistake. Instead I walked over to my new claimed cot and pushed it against Clarkes. I claimed into our makeshift bed and wrapped an arm losely around Clarke. We both needed rest, especially before we had many sleepless nights which were bound to be ahead of us.