written in the stars

Chapter 30

I do not own the 100. I am just a fan writing fanfics.

Bellamy's P.O.V.

I woke up to the darkness of the dropship. I rolled away from Clarke and slowly got up. I could feel the cool air from the door and I silently cursed myself for not putting a blanket over Clarke before I had fallen asleep. It was going to be winter soon and from Lincoln's stories there would most likely be snow in a month. I crossed the med bay to the box of blankets at grabbed one for Clarke. I made my way back over to her and placed it over her. She wasn't too cold but I wouldnt risk it. I tucked a piece of hair behinde her head to keep it out of her face. I lightly kissed her cheeck and pulled the green blanket up further around her.

I stood up no longer tired but wide awake. I had been sleeping for hours and I couldn't rest any longer. Without much hesitation I started to walk to the door of the dropship. I paused only for a moment turnning to look back at Clarke. She was asleep, and she would be when I got back. I started to walk out the door and into the camp when the cool air cut through my shirt making me shiver. I quickened my pace, not really sure where I planned to go. It was dark out but there were still fires lit on the outskirts of the cabins. I was walking aimlessly when I stumbled onto a lit fire. It seemed empty until I looked a little harder.

Against a tree wrapped in a blanket was Octavia. She hadnt seen me yet and I didn't want to scare her, so I approached slowly. Her head poped up at the sound of my boots hitting the cold hard dirt. When she saw me her expression changed from emotionless to pained. She moved to get up but i closed the distance and sat beside her. For a moment t we were silent.

"I thought you might have been Lincoln." Octavia said using a stick to poke at the ground, not really looking at me. "He is hiding something Bell." She continued and i heard her voice waver. I closed my eyes, he was hiding something, my secret. I couldnt help but feel guilty. I came so close to just telling her. It would explain so much. I bit my tongue, I wanted Clarke to be with me. So instead i said, "he loves you, and i trust that he has his reasons for the things he does. He would never hurt you". She only smiled, i hoped she believed me. "Listen, about earlier-" i began, trying to explain the best i could. "Bell, its fine. I know you were stressed out. I mean you were making no sense and you scared us shitless when you collapsed. You don't have to explain. And I am sorry, i hope you know that." She finished with a sigh.

I wrapped an arm around her shoulder. "I have already told you it wasn't your fault. Don't worry things will make sense soon." I said giving her a squeeze. She looked at me unimpressed and curiously but didn't ask. "So how is Clarke?" She said instead. I thought about Clarke's face when she heard the heartbeats, i bit back a grin. She looked both elated and terrified at the same time. "She is okay, very tired and a little stressed but she is good." Octavia seemed to be calmer now that I had confirmed once again Clarke was okay. I decided to change the conversation to something a bit happier, something other than illness or injury.

"How are you and Lincoln doing?" I asked pulling away so I could face her. She smiled a bit and the tiniest blush crossed her cheeks. "We're good. Like happy good." She smiled. I was glad to see her so relaxed and in a normal relationship. "I'm happy for you." I said hoping i sounded sincere. Her smile only grew. I couldnt wait until she found out about the twins, she would lose it.

Octavia yawned and I realized she probably hadn't slept. I stood up and offered her a hand. Like usual she waved me off and got up herself. I walked her back to her cabin and said goodnight. "Night O. Come see me in the morning with the others, in the medbay." She agreed but I could tell she was confused. I did like having a secret it made things more fun, but i also couldn't wait to share the happiness with everyone.

After Octavia's door closed I decided to head back to the medbay. It would be morning soon and if Clarke woke up wothout me she would go off searching, and we couldnt have that.