One More Chance

Twenty Seven

Milan-
After class I had to work and honestly I needed anything to get my mind off of lastnight, I didn't talk to Hakeem or Bashar and had no intentions of doing so, I told Jade about what happened and she offered to get me some frozen yogurt after work from Pink Berry and just talk.
Our shift ended and we headed to Pink Berry.

"So you kissed Hakeem, how was that"  she asked as she took a spoonful of her yogurt.
"I enjoyed it and bitch I felt so bad after for kissing him cause of Pop like he wasn't laid up with some other bitch"
She rolled her eyes and laughed at me.
"Girl, no need to be sad because whatever you do now Pop can't get mad at cause yall aint together and especially after that bitch"
I sucked my teeth at the thought and tried to forget about it.
"Next week we outside tho, labour day finna be so lit this year I can feel it" I said as I danced in my chair.
"This shit slaps for real"
"No cap"
Hakeem- Hey, call me when you free
"Hakeem just texted me, he said to call him when I'm free"

"Oooo, with his fine self you better stop playing" she smirked as she licked her spoon.

Me- bet

We finished up then went home,  as I got in I met my mom sleeping on the couch and I turned the lights off then put a blanket over her. I took a long warm shower just thinking and once I was out facetimed Hakeem.

"Heyy"
"Wassup?" I said as I put my face moisturizer on and my bonnet.
"Sorry I kissed you like that, I felt like that was wrong especially since you was kinda going thru it a-" I cut him off  "Na dont be, it was cool" I said as I put my lip balm on finishing my night routine.

"Foreal? I thought it was kinda like taking advantage of you cause you were vulnerable but still my bad shawty. What you doin tomorrow?"
"Um, I got work, then I'm gonna go get some stuff for my fashion thing and make up shopping"

"Ight, I'll join you then"
"You inviting yourself nigga, bold as fuck" I laughed and he smiled as he brushed his waves.
"So I should stay home?"
"Na come"  he tied his durag and we talked for a lil bit then hung up. It was nice,at least to not think about Bashar for a lil bit.

I got on Instagram and pop went live as I laid in bed, I joined and watched.
"This song I'm working on right, y'all gonna fuck with that shit for sure" he paused reading the comments and must've noticed that I was in the live and started singing you are my sunshine.

"Yall like that song? That's for my sunshine, that's my unreleased" he laughed as he read the comments and lit his blunt.
"I love y'all too, it's all love. I'm gonna go get off, I have alotta shit to work on but I got talk with the sneak peak " I got off the live and went to Snapchat just going through memories, this man became a part of my everyday life now its hard to just pick up and leave, I still felt crushed about what happened even after everyone told me its okay and whatever I'm still allowed to feel however  I feel. I just put in my ear pods and put on dome music.

J.I Prince of New York Used to can't on and I sang along as I decided to work on my fashion, I always been working no matter what, this education forever and some relationship problems can't gave me fucking up, writing up my description and my homework for Business.

Once this song came on I tried my best to continue working but it felt like my situation, tears fell on my page while I wrote even though I could barely see and this shit was overwhelming honestly.

I called Jade
"Hey babe-, What's wrong baby?"
I cried even harder, to the point where I felt sick.
"I miss him and he fuckin cheated on me but I love him Jade" I held my head in my hands just bawling my eyes out until I got the worst headache.
"He probably never wanted me, he can get any bitch he wants, how could he? I can't, how?" I blowed my nose and Jade didn't have the right words to say but she stayed on the phone and  listened and that's all I really wanted.
"Its gonna be okay baby, let it out" I cried even harder as I laid on my side hugging my pillow, it felt like my stomach was turning and clenching. My face was hot and got a soft tint of red on it.
Jade eventually started crying with me and she stayed until I fell asleep.

The dream I had that night was crazy.
"Do you Milan Christopher take a Bashar Jackson to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, for better or for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish from this day forward until death do you part?" I smiled at him as he lifted my veil.
"I do"

"I now pronounce you Man and Wife, you may now kiss your bride" he pulled me in and kissed me so passionately, it felt so real. Music came out of no where it was Matrimony by Wale and Usher.

We held hands as we walked down the aisle, saying hi to family and friends and everyone cheering us on, right then five men with black masks on ran it with guns and began shooting.
Everyone ducked, the sound of screaming and chaos along with that song filled with my ears. I dropped to the floor covering from the bullets and Bashar did as well, as he got up trying to make a run over to me they shot him. I screamed at the top of my lungs as he fell to the floor and I crawled over to him, screaming as hard as I could hopefully screaming life back into him. He was on the brink of death "Milli I love you babygirl" I held his hand and I couldn't breathe.
"No! No no no no" I screamed again as I pulled him up in my lap to hug him.

I jumped out of my sleep and tried to catch my breath, I was sweaty and breathing heavy. It was 8 in the morning, I got up and went to the bathroom, looked at myself in the mirror and just shook my head. I brushed my teeth, washed my face and showered as well. I put on my my white t shirt and black leggings and some regular nike sneakers. Making sure I looked okay for work.
"Ma, ah gone eh!" I yelled as I closed the door and was on my way. I couldn't let this break up affect me too much, I just couldn't.