One More Chance

Twenty Nine

Bashar-

"Yo Pop, I saw your girl down at the art store with some nigga, wassup with that?" I got out my chair and walked over to him. "Describe that nigga" he looked at me like I was crazy.
"Six feet, waves, darkskin an-" I sucked my teeth and picked up my stuff heading out the studio. Milli got me fucked up.

I drove over to her house and knocked on the door over and over, I guess no one was home. I called her  and texted, no reply.
I sat on the chair on her porch and decided to wait on her.

Almost 2 hours passed and no Milli, shirt was making me mad, I got heated as fuck then I saw a black car pull up and Milli got out but I couldn't see who was driving the tint on that shit was mad dark.

I stood and walked closer to the gate and she rolled her eyes when she noticed me "yo who's that?" she ignored me and pushed pass me then walked up to the door. "Who's car is that Milan?!" I walked out to the car and knocked on the window and when it rolled down I saw that Hakeem nigga. "Yo what the fuck you was doin with him huh? What you was doin with my girl? Matter fact get out the car nigga"

"She ain't your girl no more nigga and it don't matter what we was doin" what the fuck this nigga really want me to beat his ass. "Bashar just come here man! Leave him alone" I sucked my teath and turned around then walked off. "Nigga you pussy and Milan deserves better than your stoopid ass thats a fact" I saw red bro! I turned around and reached through his window, opened the car door.

"Say that to my face nigga, wassup?! Talk yo shit" I pulled him out the car and all I could hear was Milan yelling at me "Bashar Stop! Oh my God! Stop" but I ignored. He swung at me and I ducked and punched him in the face  and he fell to the floor then I felt someone pulling me away and it was Milan.

"Watch out bro" I pushed her away and this nigga got up punched me in the stomach, that shit felt horrible but I couldnt stay down for long. "Bashar come on now," I punched him two times, one last time and walked over to Milan.
She ran over to him and was checking to see if he was alright, "Hakeem, I'm so sorry you okay?" I just looked at them mad as fuck, some fuckin nerve to pull up and talk all that smack but I couldnt afford to get in trouble anymore. "Next time watch your mouth with me bitch" I walked up to the door and sat on the chair again waiting for her to come back.

I couldn't even watch them, I just looked at my hands until I heard the car leave, she walked up and glared at me.
"What?" I asked as she opened tbe door and ai followed behind. "You really had to act like that?" The fuck. "What you mean if I had to act like that? Why I gotta hear from Rah that he saw you out at the store with this bozo?" She rolled her eyes and dropped her bags.

"We are not together Bashar! That's what I mean" she stormed off to her room and I followed. "We just broke up yo what the fuck", "I caught you in bed with some other bitch, we're done as far as I'm concerned, third time isn't a fuckin mistake nigga" she threw a water bottle at me.

"You fucked him?" She laughed and sat on her bed. "Thats all you worried about? If I fucked him? Yeah and I sucked his dick too nigga" she rolled her eyes and went over to her closet looking for clothes.

"Yo stop playin" I walked over to her and cornered her, she tried pushing pass me. "Does it matter? You fucked multiple bitches the fuck. Why you worried bout one nigga?" 

I was trippin off this even though I cheated but It hurt bad as fuck. "I didn't have sex with him Bashar"  she pushed me away and I just stood and looked at her as she scrambled around, she really doesn't deserve this, maybe I ain't the right nigga for her.

"You made promises  and you broke everyone, how could you even bring up another bitch in the bed we sleep in together? I'd never bring another nigga in my bed especially when I'm in a relationship, we fell out but that don't mean I don't love you and I'll go fuck another nigga. You know you're selfish and inconsiderate. I wish you would've left me alone if you knew you was gonna play with my heart this much. I can't get rid of my love for you now, I'm in too deep but fuck you Bashar"she said lowly and normally when we argue I'm not bothered too much but this hurt. "I'm so-"
"You're not, you say that and just do the same shit again." I reached out and she pushed me away.

"I love you, I've never loved a nigga the way I love you, you know about my ex's all the heartbreak. You said you wouldn't do that shit and look at you. Nigga fuck you cause I'm done I can't continue taking you back" she started pulling out the clothes I had in her closet and putting them in my back pack.
"Milan come on, let's talk baby please" she shook her head no and continued packing, I walked over to her and took the bag out of her hand and pulled her in, she fought me off then gave in and buried her favce in my chest and hit my continuously while she cried.

I pulled her in my arms and tears fell from my eyes as well, If I could go back in time I would never do what I did, she pulled away from my grip and stormed off to the bathroom slamming the door.

I sat on the chair in her room and waited for her to come back out, gathered all the clothes and put them on the bed. I walked down the hall to her bathroom and knocked until she opened.
"You okay?" She nodded and looked up at me, her eyes red as well as her nose and she started crying again then sat on the toilet.

"How could you?why? Am I not good enough for you or something Bashar?" I sat on the bathroom counter and couldn't even speak but I had to "You're perfect Milan, I just... I'm just stupid. Bab- Milan I'm sorry, every time I got in bed with someone else you were on my mind, I love you and I'm really trying to change and that night it seemed like it was over, you wasn't tryna get back together, we fell out and I was mad but that doesn't justify what I did" she shook her head and wiped her eyes.

"Whatever" she got up and I pulled her in again and she just looked up at me and I looked down at her. We kissed, her hands behind my neck, her hands on me period was a feeling I missed and longed for.

"Nobody could do this to me except you, I don't know what it is and I don't think that's good." She went back to the room, took up my stuff and put in the bag.
" i think I need some space right now" she said while looking at her toes, I just pick up the bag and walked out heading for the door, she trailed far behind.

"I love you" she said and gave her a faint smile "I love you too" and was out.

I had to self reflect and renovate my Mind and Soul.