One More Chance

Forty Eight

Bashar-

I found Milan that night at the fashion show unintentionally, she was even more beautiful in person and I couldn't just take her. She complemented my music and she looked so fine.

I couldn't tell fats I found shawty but they soon found out, word started to spread on the streets instantly, I thought about taking her in but I fell in love and couldn't and they hadn't contacted me till now.

Felt heavy thinking about that entire situation, couldn't say shit. Since then no one knew what I was in but now I thought about telling Milan

She came out of the shower and smiled at me,
"Good morning poppa" she leaned down and kissed me
"We gotta talk"
"What's wrong?"

The lump in my throat burned and I couldn't talk, she sat on the bed.
"Its because I'm pregnant ? You don't want it?"

"No bae, baby I " I shook my head and she caressed my face
"Baby wassup ?"

"I used to work with Pablo, I used to transport his shirt to people and then he told me to bring you to him"

"Pablo as in Pablo that killed my father?" I nodded and she pushed away from me and shyed away in the other corner of the room.

"He told me to bring you to him but I couldn't ma, I started talking yo you and I fell in love and I just couldn't do that to you" she put her hand over her mouth and shook her head.

"Bashar what the fuck, fuck you nigga na" she started putting on her clothes quickly then started packing her bags.

"Bae come on I'm sorry, baby" I walked over and tried to stop her but she punched me causing my nose to bleed.

"Na leave me alone okay" she  slipped on her shoes, grabbed her bag and phone and stormed out the door. My heart broke into a million pieces.

I sat on the bed and completely broke down, crying and suddenly remembered.
"Carmen, fuck no, fuck" I got up and ran behind her hoping to catch up.
"Milan!" I ran down the hallway and went down to the lobby. I called and called and she ain't answer.

"Fuuuck" I called bull down and told him to come drive me to the airport, that's the only place I would think she'd go.
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We got there and I continued calling as I walked around like a crackhead looking for her.
"Come on come on" I called again and she picked up.

"Milan please come back you're not safe out here alone, Carmen's out here she could be tracking you"

"Tracking me like you did? I can't believe you even did that and didn't day anything, ugh. I'm getting rid of this baby for sure I don't wanna be reminded of you at all. Goodbye Bashar" My heart broke

Milan-

I sat at my gate waiting impatiently, feeling horrible, I vomitted at least three times and I didn't eat anything.
It was time for me to board.

I got on and sat down, I wasn't sure how to feel but I felt it and it wasn't till the plane took off my emotions registered and I broke down on the plane, I cried the entire flight back and it got the attention of the people behind, infront and next to me.

We landed and I took an uber home, as soon as I got in the house I saw my mother and ran to her and cried.
"What's wrong pumpkin?"

"Bashar worked for Pablo, I can't think straight ma, I need to go ma"

"Milan calm down baby breathe them speak" I took a minute as mom rubbed my back and turned the fan on.

"I went out to LA to see Pop, hr told me he used to work for Pablo and he sent him after me and I-" I broke down and put my head on her chest
"Baby what? Tell me"

"I'm pregnant ma" I got up and she was shocked
"I don't want it ma I can't have this baby ma It was a mistake and now I can't"

"Everyone makes mistakes, yes he probably not the one but that baby is a part of you as well and not all Bashar"
"Ma I can't, not for him" she seemed disappointed and I knew I hurt my mother.

"I'm gonna lay down" I got up and went in to my room and opened my phone.

Hakeem- Mil, let's talk, pls

I rolled my eyes and threw my phone on my chair and drifted to sleep.

I got up at 9pm, the house was in darkness and I sat up and reached around for my phone the got up and picked up my phone.

Tyler- Hey, I haven't seen you in class for a while and didn't hear from you in the group and I'm just checking to see if you're okay.

She was in my class and project group, she seemed cool but I never got around to actually speaking to her.

Me-  I'm okay love you good?
Tyler- yeah coolin I got tickets to a Brent Faiyaz concert you tryna go? My friend cancelled last minute.

I screamed , i loved Brent I texted back immediately agreeing to go with her, I showered and did my make up.
I rummaged through my closet until I decided to wear something simple.

Sweatshorts, black graphic tee with ones.
I fixed my wig and picked up my N.Y. cap with the pink brim,

"Where you goin?" My mom came and began fixing my hair in the back.
"Concert with my friend Tyler" she nodded

"No drinking you're pregnant Milan" I rolled my eyes and checked my phone.

Tyler- Hey, I'm outside

"Okay ma I'm gonna leave" I picked up my purse and left.

I saw the red car parked in front then got in.
"Hey"
She smiled and drove off.
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We got to the concert and it was packed
"We're front row but you wanna get some drinks or anything first?"

"Sure" we bought Skittles, m&ms, I got a sprite and she got alcohol. I didn't want the baby but I have it in me right now so reconsidered and went with the sprite.

We were in front and waiting for Brent to come on, music started playing and the lights got low.
The instrumental to Feel began to play and fog filled the air and then there was his voice.

I was lost for words, I stared in awe at him and smiled while everyone sang along.

"Sing it with me y'all!" He pushed out the mic allowing the crowd to sing but I didn't, I stared and he smiled at me, stretched out his hand motioning for me to get on the stage.

"He's calling you up Mil!" I snapped out of it then went up.
"What's your name?"
"Milan"
"Okay Milan we'we're starting the sing over okay so sing it with me, get her a mic" 

It felt like I was dreaming standing next to him and his arm around me.

"It ain't the time for you walk
If I won't let go
I can tell that ain't what you want but it's like you cant let it show" he sang then allowed me to sing the other part

"Girl I'll try again and again
To give you all of me but you deny
And I chose you cause you're all I need
And you chose your man but your man ain't me
So don't call me phone acting like you care
I don't made my move I know life ain't fair"

He smiled and continued singing with me after he let me get back into the crowd and I waa still in shock, the rest of the concert was amazing and at the end for the meet and greet I saw him again.

"Milan right?" I nodded and he smiled
"I have something just for you" he turned around and pulled out a hoodie, signed and had SONDER on it.

"Oh my God thank you " I hugged him tightly and pulled away.
"You should take my number" all the fans around looked at us but we spoke quietly, I opened my phone and he typed his number.

"Text me" I smiled as he signed my CD and then we left.
The ride home we fan girled about it and I couldn't believe I actually talked to him and got his number and his hoodie.

"Okay text me when you get home okay babe" I told Tyler before I walked in the house.

Videos of Brent and I was all over Instagram and  just watched them over and over whole cuddled up in my bed, with the lights off.

Best night ever.