One More Chance

Twenty One

Bashar-

I had a concert in LA tomorrow and I couldn't stand the thought of leaving Milan alone even though her family came over to stay with her and protect her.
We finally talked lastnight and she said its best if we broke up, that was the hardest thing to process ever, I begged and tried to explain ways how we could make it work but she didn't listen, I knew that's not what we both wanted but if it would keep shawty safe, we agreed to be friends but I couldn't come to terms with that.

I've just been feeling numb, extremely sad but you know it be like that sometimes, I'm just mad that I didn't handle this differently from the start maybe it wouldn't be like this right now plus I haven't talked to her since lastnight and that shit hurt honestly.

I packed my stuff to go to LA  w8th a heavy spirit, I just hope I feel better when I'm on the stage, that's the only place that could make me feel better right now. I gathered my chains in the safe box and took my bags to the car waiting outside for me,I made sure everything was locked and left for the airport.
Milli posted a story  of her singing and my heart sunk, she sang Boyz 2 Men End of The Road.

I just closed my phone without watching out the video and closed my eyes as we headed to the airport. I really hope this feeling goes away soon.

We got to the airport just in time, checked in and boarded.
"Pop you good?" Mike asked as the plane started moving.
"I don't know man"

Milan-
Mom and I decided to go to the mall and just hang out, I've been crying all night and I didn't know what to do but I thought that was a good idea, especially for my safety.
I haven't been to work, they knew what happened and gave me some time off but for school, not so much I handed in a paper for my business class late last night even with all the crying.

Mom and I strolled around, got some cinnabon, cookies and went in stores just checking out clothes.

"So you still playing mas for labour day this year?" She asked as we walked through forever 21.
"Of course mummy, can't miss it" I always felt like labour day was apart of me and my culture, it wasn't Carnival in Trinidad but it was close so yay
Ma giggled at my response and rubbed my back.
"Milan! Hi hun" I turned around ane saw Pop's mom.
"Hi!" I hugged her and she gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"I haven't seen you in a while and Bashar keeps telling me you're busy but you said hi, how are you?"

I loved his mom so much, she was so sweet and caring and very funny.
"I've been good, could be better nut you know I'm holding on"

She started talking with mummy and I zoned out just thinking about Pop, he left yesterday to LA.

We offered to take her home after I got my food, I got Popeyes and then went out to mom's car.
"You can sit in the front" I smiled and opened the door for her then got in the back seat.

We left and Showtime by Machel Montano was playing and I sang along and danced in the backseat.

"Labour day needs to hurry up ma" they laughed as I sang and took a video including the both of them in it and posted on my stories.
'Queens Day Out💜'
I started feeling better the more I listened to the music and danced.

"Byeee!" I waved as we dropped off Pop's mom and headed home, I was hungry and couldn't wait to eat.

We got home and went inside.
"I'm gonna go shower then eat"

I went to my room and put down my stuff , changed into my robe and sat on my bed scrolling through Instagram for a little while.

(@realpopsmoke Replied to your Story)
I opened it and smiled.
realpopsmoke- My Queens💙

All the emotions came back and I couldn't hold back the tears, I threw my phone on the bed and went into the bathroom, fixed the water then got in.

After I showered I got dressed and put on The Office on my Tv while I ate.

The Office is so funny, I always loved it, the camera angles made it funnier to me.

"Milan, I'm going over to the church for a meeting. You'll be okay?"

"Yeah, I'm good ma, I'll text you if I need anything "
She smiled and left, my phone started ringing and it was Jade.

"Hey sisssss!" She screamed
"Heyyyyy, wassup?"
"I miss you, they being real bitches at work and I don't have you to calm me down." I tolled my eyes at the thought of those girls.
"If you need me to fight lemme know cuz i know they extra foe no reason" she laughed and nodded which made me laugh.
"Imma come check you tomorrow after work cause this ain't it"
"Bet, I love you boo" I said and she blushed.
"I love you too boo and stop being sad okay"
I nodded then hung up.

Pop's show was tonight and I decided to call him.

I FaceTimed him and he answered after two rings.
"Hey" I said nervously and smiled a little.
"Hey Milli, wassup?" He seemed okay actually he seemed great.

"Nothing um, I just wanted to say Have a great night, enjoy your show okay and be safe" I smiled and he smiled back.
"Got you shawty, Thank You, I'll talk to you later okay I get on in 5 minutes"
I nodded and hung up.

Maybe he's happy without me, maybe I shouldn't have called.