One More Chance

Twenty Two

Bashar-

Milan hung up before I could say anything, I could tell that she wasn't handling this well.
"We on in two minutes" my manger told me as I sat in the dressing room backstage.
"Thanks man" I got up as the team came in making sure everything was set.
Mike went out with the mic "LA wassup! Y'all ready for Pop Smoke?!"
The audience screamed then they put on Welcome to the party as I ran out in the stage singing along.
It was all a rush, the energy and love always made me feel good.
The rest of the concert was good vibes man, I felt better for sure.

After the concert we went back stage to meet some the fans.I took pictures, gave autographs in some weird places and got alotta hugs, just mad love.

"Wassup Pop" Aaliyah said as she came up to me, she was trouble and I was done fucking around with her since Milan saw that picture of us from one of my other concerts and Im sure she was the one hit her up.

"What you want?"
"Just came to say hi, how's Milan?"
She smirked and rubbed on my arm and I pushed her hand off of me,
"She's really good  don't worry bout it"
I moved and went back to my dressing room, she followed behind and came in locking the door.

"You ain't miss me daddy ? I know you and lil Milan not together" she gigled and sat on the couch playing with her hair.
"Yo get out, I don't want you"
"UGH, just shut up, you know you want me and Ion know why you fuckin with this goodie two shoes, broke bitch from Flatbush."

" Yo Shut the fuck up, you don't even know her like that. She's way better than you that's for  sure cause you a gold digger"

She rolled her eyes and came over and kissed me, I pushed her off, mad now.

"Get out."
"I don't know why you backi-"
"NOW Aaliyah! Fuck outta here deadass"
She sucked her teeth, picked up her bag and left same time Mike walked in.

"Yo, we heading back to the hotel now"
I nodded and gathered my stuff and walked out with the team then headed to the hotel.

"I'm tired man, gonna head to my room one time ight?"
I walked to my room just exhausted, once I got in I put on some music, took my clothes off leaving me in my boxers and got on the bed.

Laying on the bed I  lonely, missed the fuck outta Milan and I felt uncomfortable. Picked up my phone and called her.

"Hello?" She answered and I stayed silent for a second before I spoke.

"Wassup Milli, I woke you up?"
"Na, I'm just doing some work right now. Um wassup?"
"I told you id call back right, i just got back "

She took her glasses up and propped up her phone on the night stand.
"How was it?"
"Movie shawty, got mad love tonight, but I was too tired to stay out"
She nodded and smiled at me.

"I miss you, like crazy Milli" I said and she covered her face.
"You're making this really hard Bashar"

"Why we breaking up if we both wanna be together? Its stupid "

"Because I wanna be safe, make sure everyone around me is safe. Do normal things without niggas pulling up on me and threatening me "

I felt tears stinging my eyes but I didn't want to cry in front or shawty.
I dropped my head low and let them fall as we sat in silence.

"Look, I'll do everything I can to protect you Milli. I can't lose you at all"

"Pop, I can-"
"Baby please" my voice cracked and I cleared my throat then wiped my eyes, she was crying too.

"I can't"
I shook my head and hung up. I couldn't handle this shit.

Milan-

He hung up and I couldn't stop crying, felt like I couldn't breathe. I never thought is have to deal with a situation like this, I couldn't continue my work I just closed my laptop and for under my covers.

Swiping through pictures and videos of Bashar and I made me cry more but brought comfort at the same time.

But I knew this was what I had to do, is it? I went to sleep after crying my eyes out since I had class in the morning.

5:30 am
My alarm went off  and I opened my eyes instantly getting a headache.
"Fuck" I groaned and turned my alarm off.
Class was for 10 but I had stuff to do today and Pop's mom asked me to come over also even though I was still a bit sad I didn't mind going over.

I got ready for the day, did my make up and dressed in pink leggings, a vest and pink slides.

I walked out the house and got in my mom's car with my book bag and other stuff, I had my license and  barely drove but it would be better than travelling at this point.

Once I got to her house I went in where she greeted me and offered my some breakfast.

"I called you over to talk, I know that you and Bashar aren't together, he told me lastnight but you're the most beautiful and smart girl he ever brought home. You're ambitious and you're good for my son. But I'm telling you do what makes you happy and what feels right. You're a shining light and Bashar is lucky to be with you but  do what you want" she rubbed my back as I sat on the bar stool in her kitchen.

"I feel like this could end bad, just not safe, two encounters and both with guns. I just don't want that to happen again you know" she gave me glass of juice and sat next to me.

"I understand sweetie"
"I really love him though, I don't think I could live without him"

"Do what you feel is right" i nodded and wiped my eyes.

"Maybe we just need a break, neither feels right"
We talked for a little while until it was 8 and I left, heading to class.

I took his mothers words with me.