Erased - Analogical

[Chapter Four]

|POV Roman|

And here I was, foolishly assuming that the tension and aggression between me and Janus was only exclusive to the script. Oh how wrong I was. I could not believe that Janus was going to start acting like he cares if we disturb or disrupt Virgil from something so trivial as sleep! Granted, it's not like I was overly concerned either, but I wasn't gonna pretend to act like I did. I mean, in my mind I was sure that Virgil was just in his room sulking like he typically was. It's not that I disliked Virgil either though, we got along decently well and I was always there to defend him when the Dark Sides started to insult or bother him, mostly Janus. I would even go as far as saying I see Virgil as a friend, but if he wanted to be by himself he atleast had to tell us so we didn't get worried and panicked for him.

All three of us ended up following Logan as he lead us through the mindscape to our rooms. Once we had arrived outside of Virgils door I ended up standing next to Patton, a distance away from the other two who stood directly in front of the door. Janus kneeled down on the floor so he was at eye level with the door handle, he seemed to have summoned a lock-picking tool in his hand and was currently attempting to use it on Virgils door. Logan was stood above him, carefully examining every move that Janus made.

"Hey, Ro?" I heard Patton whisper softly to me.

"Yeah? What's up, Padre?"

"Do you... actually think Virgils ok? Because last time this happened and we found him again, he looked really rough."

Lord... thinking back on what happened last time made my skin shiver for a brief moment. It's not like Virgil was physically harmed or beat up or anything, but he looked like his soul had left his body. His skin was ice pale apart from smudged black eyeshadow under his eyes mixed with blood red patches around his whole eyes caused from what i'd assume was sobbing. His dark purple hair was a complete, unbrushed mess and every word he spoke was rough, the amount of sobbing he had gone through seemed to have ripped apart his vocal chords so his words were nothing more than a raspy whisper. Seeing him in that state was a wake up call to all of us that he was our friend and we needed to do a better job on checking up on him. I remember the week after it happened Patton made sure to check on each of us regularly, even checking on Remus of all people. Virgil and Logan ended up spending so much more time together, Logan even had his first sleepover that I hadn't forced him into after that. Who knew all it took to become better friends was to see one of your best friends isolate himself from everyone and everything?

"Pat, i'm sure he's fine," I tried to reassure, "I mean last time we hadn't seen him in a week, this time we haven't seen him for what, two-three days? I'm sure he'll be practically perfect in every way!"

I noticed my words seemed to provide Patton with a sense of relief as I saw him let out a breath i'm not even sure he knew he was holding. But our attention was quickly pulled away again by Janus' sly tone of voice.

"Got it. The doors open," He smirked and stood back up, very clearly prideful of himself that he managed to go through with his plan without having to resort to mine. Damn it, guess i'll have to break down someone elses door another time.

"I see, thank you Janus," Logan briefly thanked before pushing his way infront of the Snake and entering the room first. I could tell the concern Lo had was greater than the worry Patton had right now, and in all honesty, I knew it was because of Logans feelings for Virgil. I'm sure the other sides probably speculated that Logan and Virgil had feelings for each other, but they never had proof. You see, the good thing about being the romantic trait if you're able to tell when other sides were feeling some sort of romantic feelings. The same way Janus cal tell when sides are lying, Virgil can tell when sides are anxious, Patton can tell when other sides are having moral dilemmas & feeling hatred ect.

I'd never brought it up to anyone as I never felt like it was my place, but I swear to Judy Andrews herself, if those two didn't come to accept how they felt for each other and confess, I was gonna have to step in sooner or later.

Anyway, back to the subject at hand here. Logan entered the room first, followed by Patton and then I entered after, all frantically glancing around the room. It was... empty. Logan ended up going over to check his bed while Patton left to check Virgils ensuite bathroom. I was left to just look around the room, causing me to notice that Janus hadn't even entered yet, he was still waiting outside. S trange.

My gaze trailed around, I'd never actually gotten the chance to look around here much, usually I only got brief glances from the doorway whenever I had to go and get him for something. A few things my eyes landed on was his large amount of art equipment, one of them especially stood out. It was a closed sketchpad with a green background that had a crown layered on top for its front cover. Remus probably made most of these for him in his side of the imagination back when they were close.

After not too long, maybe just under a minute, I hadn't noticed anything worthwhile and just turned back to face Logan. He appeared to be sat on Virgils bed, reading a crumpled piece of paper with the word 'Sorry' scrawled on the back of it.

"Logan, whats that?" I questioned as I took a step closer, folding my arms. The look on his face was a mix of shock and every so slight upset, rare to see on Logan.

"I-... It's from Virgil..." he choked out as if he was trying to repress sobs in his throat, holding his hand out that held the note for me to take.

Hesitantly, I did so and began to read it.

"Dear whoever the hell gets to read this first
I don't wanna make this long and dramatic or whatever so i'll try to keep it short
I guess all I really have to say right now is sorry, in all honesty.
Really, i'm sorry it came down to this, but it was all I could do to stop the endless arguing and guilt I felt
So, i've chosen to erase myself

I hope it's not too big of an inconvenience for you guys
But really, just get another Side Dark Trait to replace me
Maybe ignorance or anger, they were always fairly nice guys

Anyways, I should end this letter soon so i can just get on with it

Patton, don't blame yourself, this isn't your fault & you couldn't have stopped the inevitable

Roman, thanks a ton for always being there to defend me, really, it meant alot e̶v̶e̶n̶ ̶i̶f̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶w̶a̶s̶ ̶f̶o̶r̶ ̶y̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶o̶w̶n̶ ̶s̶e̶l̶f̶ ̶b̶e̶n̶i̶f̶i̶t̶

Remus, even after everything that happened, you really were just like a brother to me

Janus, you're probably relived about this, im guessing? No more arguments, & if you really still want an answer to your question, try get Logan to tell you, he knows

And Logan... i'm not even sure how to convey everything I feel for you in this letter
But
I love you, and I always have

I'll just leave it at that before I start crying more than I already am
So, I guess this is supposed to be goodbye

Just, do one last thing for me, if you ever somehow start to feel sad over me not being here to fuck your stuff up, just look yourself in the mirror and quote something for me

'Though you're dead and gone... we'll carry on'

Edgy, ikr, anyways this is way longer than I wanted it to be so peace out

-Virgil ☠ "

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Oh my god...

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