Erased - Analogical

[Chapter Twenty-Three]

|POV Remus|

Who the hell made emotions so confusing. Like seriously, it pisses me off how I can be feeling so much conflict over this. Roman, my own fucking brother, was the reason my best friend left me. I always knew that there had to be something deeper as to why Virgil chose to leave us, but the truth was less than satisfying to hear. But the worse part to this whole mess of a situation was the fact I couldn't be angry at Roman. The exact same way I couldn't be angry at Virgil for leaving.
I just can't.

I guess it must be some kinda side effect of being 'Intrusive Thoughts' or Dark Creativity or whatever people call me now. Being constantly surrounded in overly gorey, inappropriate, nightmare-ish thoughts can get overwhelming, the only way I learned how to deal with it was to desensitise myself so much that it doesn't phase me anymore. And with that ability also comes not being phased or outraged with other people's dark thoughts and actions. I can just never bring myself to be angry or upset with others while also knowing everything I've thought.

"Remus... is everything alright..?" I heard an almost-silent voice whisper to me, it was Janus. Me and him were leading the way infront of the other three who seemed to be completely silent behind us.

"Everything's fine, Jan.." I whispered back, preferring if the Light Sides didn't hear our conversation.

"Remus, I know something's wrong. I am literally the embodiment of lies... plus, usually you know that and so you don't lie to me, which means you're distracted thinking about something?"

I scoffed lightly under my breath, he was right and we both knew it, "it's just... about Virgil. I'll explain everything to you when we get back with him... nows not the time.",

My scaled companion stayed silent for a split second before nodding his head in understanding, "so be it. But... if I can assist in anyway, please don't inform me. I'm not coming to terms with the possible severity of the situation at hand, and I do not worry for both you and Virgil... and also Logan who I did not speak with slightly on the way over here."

"Don't worry dude, I'll tell ya if there's anything. And you spoke with Nerdy Wolverine, huh?" I raised an eyebrow, "he seems fairly cool. But Virgil seemed to trust him mainly, so I guess I trust him too."

Janus nodded his head in agreement, "and... on the note that Virgil left for the others, I don't believe that he actually left some form of confession for Logan."

"H u h ?" I widened my eyes as he said it, "he actually left a confession? Damn... lets just hope that he still remembers making that confession when we find him then."

During my conversation with Janus, I noticed the three sides behind us had started a small conversation but almost immediately after it had started, it seemed like it had ended. I took a brief glance behind my shoulder to see if things were ok. Roman looked like he had heard some shocking news or some shit while Patton looked ever-so slightly cautious, whether this was because of their conversation or because of worry as to what be hiding in my imagination was unknown, and Logan... he still looked as unreadable as ever. Seriously, that dude seemed like he could just switch his emotions off at will like a lightswitch, pretty impressive all things considered.

"Uh.. Remus..?" I heard a slightly timid voice come from behind me, turning around again to face them, I saw it was Patton who had called me.

"Yeah? Whats up daddy?" I asked casually, beginning to walk backwards so I could still face him without stopping to talk.

"Just... how long until we find this place where Virgil is..? I don't mean any offence but your imagination is so empty but also.. unnerving?" He said, clearly trying not to offend me as he did.

I let a small chuckle out from under my breath, "not too much farther, I promise it won't be that long. And yeah, of course my imagination is empty and you have me to thank for that. Usually this place is swarming with chaos and deadly things! Buuut, I am trying so hard to keep my thoughts under control right now so I don't accidentally summon anything deadly! Yano, so you guys don't die on the way over."

My mention of death had clearly unsettled Patton as I saw him take a step closer to Roman. Weird, even after all of this, Patton still looked to Roman for protection. Didn't really expect that but ok. But everything I said was true! Aslong as I kept my thoughts and mind relatively blank, nothing would summon around us and so there would be nothing that could pose a threat! It was weird to see a land that was usually filled with really crazy and wack creatures be empty.

We continued in silence for a little while before my thoughts began to drift a bit, I was so worried for Virgil and what we'd find of him when we actually got into the Reverse Room. Before I even knew it or could stop it, a familiar laugh echoed throughout the void-ish land around us. Virgils laugh.

All the sides turned to look at me, questioning if Virgil was actually near or if that was just my imagination replicating my thoughts..

"Sorry..." I mumbled under my breath and shook my head trying to clear my thoughts, "just my thoughts becoming a bit too loud."

"You and Virgil were really close, huh..?" I heard Pattons sympathetic voice ask me.

As much as I would have normally ignored his question or just tried to shake it off with a joke like 'nah me and him are mortal enemies', I just couldn't bring myself to lie about it right now. "Yep.." I sighed with clear sorrow lacing parts of my voice, "I always miss him a shit ton. But I don't want pity either. It's not like we can go back in time or whatever. I've lost him once, so I'm focusing on making sure I never loose him again."

My words seemed to resonate with the moral side as he gave a nod of approval. The look in his eyes and his worry for Virgil reminded me of myself. In that moment, I felt like I understood Patton ever so slightly. Just for a split second.

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