Erased - Analogical

[Chapter Thirty]

|POV Janus|

The night was late and I was unbelievably tired. After escorting Patton and Roman back to their side of the mind, I made my way through the village while making sure to stay on guard. I couldn't shake the feeling that one of the Minor Sides was watching me...
This whole situation must seem confusing to them anyway so its not like I could blame them for being curious about it. I mean, seeing the Light Sides and Dark Sides together in the Dark Side of the mind wasn't a very common occurrence you'd see. I made sure to keep my posture straight and intimidating until I knew I was in the safety of the Dark Mind Palace , the last thing I needed right now was the Minor Dark Sides perceiving me as weak due to a change in the way I presented myself, as far as they knew I was an extreme force to be reckoned with and I planned on it staying that way.

But really... this whole thing was so exhausting. I just wanted to get back into the Mind Palace and go straight to sleep, lie to myself just a bit more to erase the guilt plaguing my mind, all of the thoughts telling me that it's my fault Virgils reverted back to Paranoia. But I wasn't satisfied with just doing that. When Remus, Roman and Patton caught up with us from the village I knew something was wrong, every single one of them had changed demeanours. Roman seemed guilty, Patton seemed disappointed and Remus seemed hurt. Ask anyone and they'll tell you that it's extremely hard to read Remus' emotions, but as the literal embodiment of deception who had also known Remus for virtually his whole life I will admit I can see through his facade slightly easier than most can. So before I go and get any form of rest, I needed to go and ask Remus what had transpired while I was alone with Logan.

Making my way through the Mind Palace, I peaked my head into the living quarters to see what I would find in there, trying to be as silent as possible. The sight before me was quite sweet, i'll admit. Logan had a blue blanket draped over his shoulders while he loosely held the unconscious hand of Paranoia, who also had a blanket over him. Virgils old blanket. Remus must have given the blankets to him. Logan hadn't seemed to take notice of me looking at them and so I continued my way through the Mind Palace before that could change. As cute as it was, I couldn't help but feel a slight hint of jealousy. I still cared for Virgil so much, every fight I had with him was started out of frustration cause of how much I cared for him, he was like a son to me, and just seeing Logan be there for him constantly when I couldn't be made my heart ache ever so slightly. Logan had been there for him since they knew eachother, they were close in the Light Side of the Mind and there's no doubt they'd probably get close again once Paranoia woke up. But I had no clue if i'd be given the chance to be that close with him again.

Trying to push those thoughts away for the time being, I continued to make my way through our Mind Palace til I found our rooms, mine, Remus' and.. Virgils, all in a row. Before I could even knock on Remus door, I found myself standing infront of Virgils old room. I don't even remember walking up to it, my mind just lead me there. My hand hesitantly pushed down on the door handle as the door begun to creek open. I hadn't been in his room in years, it made me remember all the good times we had had together as trio over the years, and those memories stung to remember.

The last time I had checked his room, the walls had dulled down from a beautiful shade of violet to a dusty grey, most likely due to his weaker connection with the Dark Side of the Mind, but that wasn't the case anymore. Looking around, it almost looked like Virgil had never left. The room that was previously in abandoned shambles was now restored to the way it looked all those years ago. Cobwebs adorned the walls along with many formal gothic and emo style decorations such as posters and trinkets. I could only assume that the rooms sudden recovery into looking the way it did years ago was due to Paranoias return to us, which only confirmed it to me. Virgil had become the same Paranoia he was all those years ago, no doubt at all. Not to mention the rush of emotions I got when entering his room, which was another good sign he was back.