Hearts beat fast
My favorite song. Masyado akong mangha at busy sa pagtingin sa buong kwarto pero nakuha nyang muli ang atensyon ko.
Mas lalo akong naluha sa pagpatak ng tugtog. Gino was holding his phone up and waving it a little to me. The song was coming from it and it invaded the whole room. I saw his other hand reached out to something, it was a string and he pulled it. Blue, yellow, and white bulb lights hanging from the very ceiling burst into us. Tiningala ko ito at namangha lalo sa nakita. Napanganga ako sa ganda.
“Ang ganda”
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
“Come here”, rinig kong utos ni Gino. Ibnalik ko sa kanya ang mga mata ko at ipinapatong na nya ang kanyang cellphone sa maliit na table na nasa gilid na ngayon ko lang din napansin. Kahit na sya ang nagsabi na lumapit ako ay sya naman ang gumawa. Hinila nya ako sa gitna ng kwarto.
“Let’s dance”
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt, suddenly goes away somehow
He positioned us to get ready to dance. He placed my hand on his firm shoulder then the other one on his calloused palm. His was on my tiny waist. We were so close. We’ve been closer than this, we have even kissed, no distance from each other but this was new.
We never danced.
“We never danced”, simula nya ulit saliw sa musikang umiihip sa paligid namin.
“We were thinking the same thing”, I giggled. My eyes still blurry from my tears. My heart felt like bursting any second because of too much happiness.
Was this even real?
“You’ve danced with the lots of men but I never get the chance”, pinagmasdan ko ang pag-alis ng tingin nya sa mata ko at pagsimangot nya ng bahagya.
“Are you jealous?”
The thought of him being jealous pinched something in me. There was a warmth inside of my chest that was never been there.
One step closer
And just like the lyric of the song, I felt him took another step closer to me. Wala na halos espasyo sa pagitan namin. Sumasagi ang baba ko sa taas nyang dibdib. His height was no joke. Alam kong matangkad ako pero ilang pulgada pa rin ang tangkad nya sa akin.
I tipped my head up to him and saw his eyes shone in the midst of the darkness around us. His face was covered by the shadow as he looked down at me. He always had those intense eyes.
“I have died everyday, waiting for you
Darling, don’t be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more”
I tried to sing along with the song. This song represented all that I was feeling all along. For Gino. For the man I truly love.
Binitawan nya ang kamay ko at inilapat iyon sa aking pisngi. Pinunasan nya ang gilid ng aking mata gamit ang kanyang hinlalaki.
“Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything, take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath, every hour has come to this”
Gino sang. Gino sang to me with his deep serious voice as he softly stared at me.
