He's Not Dangerous {Hayes Grier Fanfic}

-7- That Awkward Moment When Your Mom Treats You Like An Adult

Amber POV

My stomach turns when I see the new cuts on his wrist. I sit up and grab his arm.

"Hayes? You're a fucking idiot."

I roll up his shirt even more and see even more lined up on his arm. Some of them are still bleeding so I know he did them recently. He tried to roll down his sleeve but I roll it back up. He rolls it back down and I roll it back up once more. He starts to chuckle but I continue to stare into his eyes.

"Why?" I ask him simply. He sits up and leans against his headboard.

"It was all too much Amber. Everyone talking about me, me going crazy, I don't even know who I am. I couldn't take it." Hayes looks at me and I see tears in his eyes. I feel a tear roll down my cheek and Hayes wipes it away with his thumb.

"S-so you hurt yourself?" He nods and I finally roll his sleeve back down.

"No Hayes stop. Please don't do this to yourself." I say breathing heavily.

"Amber it's my only escape." He says and I see the desperation in his eyes.

"No you can talk to me. Don't do this please Hayes."

"It's all too much." I cry into his chest and he wraps his arms around me. I quickly get up and look at him.

"Wheres your blade?" I look into his eyes and I see them flicker to a drawer. A flicker that was hard to catch unless you're looking for it. I quickly run over to the drawer and pull it open. Hayes has gotten up to stop me but I quickly find the blade and hide it in my hand.

"Amber. Please." He says his voice cracking and he looks so sad I almost want to give it back to him. 

"You can't do this to yourself Hayes. Please say you'll stop right now."

"Amber I can't-" He stops talking when he sees me drag the blade through my own wrist. I cut several times before he crosses the room and wrestles me for the blade. I fall onto the bed cutting and Hayes is screaming.

"Amber stop right now!" He yells at me.

I manage to make another cut while saying, "Promise you'll stop!" I'm cutting pretty deep and this is hurting very much. But I keep going so Hayes knows what it feels like.

"I Promise! AMBER GIVE ME THAT RIGHT NOW!" He grabs for the blade and I throw it down. He grabs it, walks it to the bathroom, and flushes it down the toilet. I see he's come back with a towel and he dabs my bloody wrist with it.

"A-Amber." He says crying. "Never do that again." 

"Hayes that's exactly how I feel. Please don't hurt yourself ever again. Just talk to me." I whisper staring into his eyes. "Never again okay?"

He sighs and says, "Okay." He continues to dab my wrists till they stop bleeding and he pours some water over them. After putting on the band-aids we lay back on his bed, looking at the ceiling once again.

"Hayes I legit love you."

"Aww I legit love you too." He says and I roll over on the bed to face him. 

"Yeah let's not do that whole scene again."

"I could not agree more." I smile as I realize how tired I am. 

"Ok if I take a quick nap here before I leave?" 

"Of course." Hayes says and I soon drift off to sleep with Hayes's arms around me once again.

"Shit." I say when I wake up the next morning. "Hayes wake up." I say elbowing him.

"Whazzupp?" He mumbles sleepily while yawning.