He's Not Dangerous {Hayes Grier Fanfic}

-19- I Can Hear You!!!

Amber POV

"I'm such a dick Amber." I hear someone say. What the heck is going on? 

""I don't even know why I kissed Kate, I just thought you finally noticed I wasn't good enough for you. I love you Amber but I-I'm dangerous and I just deserve someone like Kate not you and I'm so sorry Amber." It's Hayes. His voice, I can hear it, he sounds distressed. 

I remember. I kissed Hunter, Hayes kissed Kate, I took too many pills. I'm in a coma. Oh this is just great.

Hayes goes on crying and grabs my hand. I want to see him but can't bring myself to open my eyes. I made Hayes cry, I feel really bad. Though technically he did kiss Kate. But I can't blame this on him, I'm the stupid one who took too many pills.

"I know she's going to wake up. Amber's a fighter." Hunter's voice now. I know he grabs my other hand and it's silent for a moment. Yeah both of you holding my hand is not really helping my deciding between you situation. Boyfriend holding one hand, ex holding the other. Someone hiccups, crying, but I don't know who it is. They both don't seem like criers to me.

"Yeah. Yeah she is." Hayes says and there's silence again. 

Wait I have a chance of dying right now. This coma sounds like it could go either way. Uh okay.

"Can I uh have a moment alone with her?" Hunter asks. I wonder how Hayes will take that. He doesn't say anything so I assume he nods and I soon hear a door close. Well this should be interesting. 

"Amber if you can hear me-" I can. "Please know I still love you with all of my heart. All of it. I want you to know, all that shit I did to you, I was jealous. Jealous that someone could steal you from me, steal the love of my life. And I know what I did to you was wrong, I was a dick." Ok now both of them have admitted to being dicks. "And I'm so sorry Amber. I truly am. Kate was nothing, I tried to fill the empty void that you left but it can't be filled without you. Amber you're amazing. Last year when we were together, it was the best year of my life. I only wish that those things never happened, that I was never so stupid enough to do what I did. But since I can't take it back I just want to say I love you Amber. Please wake up Amber. Please. You don't have to do it for me, do it for who you want to. Please Amber just-" He cuts off here crying. 

My heart swells at his speech and I realize my choice is way harder than I thought. How can a girl choose between two heartfelt speeches, both professing their love for you? Especially when she's on the verge of death.

My thoughts go wild as I think about both guys and as Hunter holds my hand. I feel like I'm in a daze, yet I know I'm in the daze. I hate the feeling but at the same time I love the peace. I don't know what to do with myself yet I just lay here. I fall into a sleep inside the coma, where I stop hearing what's going on around me. Though everyone thinks I've been sleeping this whole time, my mind finally goes to sleep and I go into some type of hibernation. 

"My baby sister!" I hear crying and I know it's Olivia. I don't know how long I've been in this coma sleep but I've just woken up. Not from the coma but from my little brain nap. Have days passed? Weeks? Am I dead already?

"I can't believe I'm here so late. Stupid delayed flight when I need to see my sister." Olivia says stroking my hair. "And then wait till the morning to visit?"I know it's morning now but I don't know if it's the morning right after my first night or a morning in July or something.  I want to see her, I want to say I'm fine. I don't want to put all these people I love through this, just because I made a stupid decision.

"Amber sweetie, you can wake up." Oh how I wish my eyelids didn't feel so heavy. "Oh I love you Amber, you have to!" I'm trying woman!

"Honey, she will." Nick's here. I wonder where my parents are. "Don't worry, Amber'll wake up in a matter of time." Thank you Nick, just tell me when that will be happening. I can't get myself up to hug my loved ones. It's like this elephant sits on my chest and is holding my eyelids down, keeping me in this coma. Why oh why did I swallow the whole bottle?