Escape from Reality (Realto #1: Completed)

Chapter 36

"You need to look for her every hour dahil every four hours lang bibisita ang mga nurses niya."

Mabigat ang loob ko habang nasa harap ko siya. What I did a while ago is so embarrassing at halos hindi ko siya maharap ngayon. I cursed myself multiple times for showing him that side of me. 

"Excuse me," paalam niya. Tumango lang ako at narinig ko ang pagsara ng pintuan. I sighed heavily as I massage the corner of my head. 

Naaawa ako sa sarili ko. I pity myself too much. Tama pa ba ang ginagawa ko? I am so drown with him at hindi ko alam paano aahon. I thought I won when I left him pero lalo lang pala akong bumababa.. lalo lang pala akong masasaktan.

I looked at the window covered with curtain in rainbow color. I walked towards the window to see the outside. May liwanag pa sa labas dahil hapon pa lang. 

I wanted to see Badet. I want her to talk to me. I want her to lecture me. Dahil sobrang tangang-tanga na ako sa sarili ko. 

I tried to reach for my phone na nasa bulsa ko. Dinial ko ang numero niya at agad naman niya itong sinagot. "C-can you come?" I said in my cracked voice.

["Anong nangyari? Umiiyak ka ba?"] She sounded concerned. 

"Just come, please." I asked her. "Can you?"

["Besh, sinamahan ko pa naman si nanay mamalengke, hindi ata ako makakarating agad."] Sabi niya na mukhang disappointed. Napatango lang ako at pinahid ang mga luha ko. 

"It's okay. Okay lang.. ako," malumanay na sabi ko, pinipigil ang hikbi ko. 

["Magagalit ka ba? Sorry talaga.] She sounded really sorry at naiintidihan ko naman.

"Okay lang, ano ka ba?" I chuckled silently. 

Ibinaba ko ang tawag at itinago na ang phone ko. I decided to just buy my food at the nearest fastfood chain along the street. Tulog naman si Brit at pwede ko naman siyang ipabantay na lang sa ibang nurse. 

"Uhm.. yes, I just need to buy my food," dahilan ko sa nurse na nasa harap ko. Marahan naman siyang tumango sa akin at ngumiti. I smiled back at her and decided to go outside.

Medyo dumidilim na rin pero naglitawan ang mga ilaw sa kalsada. I walked along the street and feelt the chaotic aura of the city. It feels so nostalgic.

The old feelings of yesterday went back and sang along with the wind. It's killing me so much. Bakit ko ba nararamdaman 'to? Sinubukan kong kalimutan siya. I really tried to forget everything about him. 

Unti-unti ng nawawala.. pero dumating ulit siya. I'm at my starting point but then again I dropped at my weakest point for so many times already.

"Attorney Rivera." Napako ako sa pwesto ko nang may marinig akong isang tawag. The voice seems so familiar to me na halos manlambot ang mga tuhod ko.