𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐲'𝐬 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐨: 𝟗 | 𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐲𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐬

❝ chemistry ❞

i cannot fall asleep, but something crossed my mind that i think about every once in a while.

the first night i stayed up with casey, i was spamming austin (that-fast-leprechaun ) telling him what was happening. i was very excited, but i didn't wanna stay up that late.

i think it was 1:30am where i was like, alright, i should go to bed, but then i spent another hour or so struggling to get myself to say goodnight. i was too nervous and didn't know how to bring it up.

the problem turned into me refusing to go to bed cuz i wanted to keep staying up with casey. i think at that point, i would've stayed up however long casey stayed up for. we stayed up until 4:30am, where casey quickly said he wanted to go masturbate (lamow i'm not sorry for including this) and left without saying goodbye.

  i have no idea when casey mentioned it, but after the fact, he said that the chemistry that night between us was obviously there. i didn't say anything, just thought about that and how he still got that while i was an anxious (but really giddy) mess haha.

  that's what i think about from time to time. idk why that resonates with me so much, but it does.

  aight, i'm hungy, but it's too late to eat. and there isn't anything in the house since my mom's refusing to go to the grocery store.