𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐲'𝐬 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐨: 𝟗 | 𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐲𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐬

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i randomly started humming under the bridge, and casey started singing the lyrics haha.

the one thing i'm grateful for when it comes to my dad is him introducing me to rhcp's music.

my taste in music is definitely a spectrum. most of it falls into rock.

i still don't know my schedule. the site doesn't say it, and my school email still has the schedule for junior year,,, which i'm just now realizing might be onenote links to those periods,,, that just haven't been wiped yet.

damn, rhcp has several bops. i never realized.

why do colleges send me spam all the time?? it's so annoying :') all of my emails are just spam from a ton of different colleges. they all want me~

  i still need to take the act >:(

  while i'm not on meds, i'm always on autopilot and hardly use my brain,,, that could actually be part of the reason why i've been struggling to socialize with people. i just stop thinking and randomly say things when they come to mind.

  i'm not that dumb,,, i swear,,,

  man, whenever i'm on good meds and at my peak performance, i'm suddenly powerful haha. mentally, i mean.

  you guys have clear thoughts and can focus? wild, idk what that feels like without taking drugs. it's stinky, but i'll find what works for me someday.

  i haven't taken my meds in months. i'm just now realizing how blurred everything has been mentally. everything's just a passing thought i don't really dwell on. i've been so mentally out of it.

  that actually makes me excited to start taking my meds again. less than two weeks, babey.

  i just want meds for the clarity of though if anything. to just,,, be able to think regularly at a normal pace.

  you guys can do all this normal shit i can't do.

  i've been jealous of neurotypical people for so long. i'll get to their level one day :p and then i'll show my potential.