𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐲'𝐬 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐨: 𝟗 | 𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐲𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐢𝐛𝐬

❝ imposter ❞

last night while i was trying to sleep, i did finally put a finger on what's been bothering me recently: really bad imposter syndrome.

i feel like i'm shit and don't do enough for casey. on top of that, i'm the only one who experiences problems and tries to get help while casey seems like he never has anything wrong. it feels like i'm taking more than i'm giving. i shouldn't be experiencing all this. my thoughts and emotions are dumb.

  i'm afraid that one day, casey's just gonna call me out of the blue and break up with me like richie did cuz i wasn't good enough for him. it's gonna be sudden, and it's gonna feel like my world's falling apart.

  i tell casey i don't feel like i deserve him or what he does for me, and he says he doesn't care if i deserve it or not. that says that i'm awful, and i'm selfish for going to casey when i feel bad.

  i'm fucking selfish and needy and awful and now i want to cry cuz ik why i've been feeling shitty. i just want to be alone.