Watch it Burn

Chapter 24

A/N: Oh God, how have you managed to stick around for so long. I promise they will be happy..... eventually.

It had been a week, Aang was still out cold but alive. We had caught up with the southern water tribe warriors and some of Jet's freedom fighters. Katara and Sokka's dad was with them and so was Bato. We ended up taking over a fire nation ship easily and were hiding out on it every sense.

"So you're the spirit girl I've heard so much about." Hakoda said to me, while I looked out into the ever expanding sea.

"Yep that's me." I smiled and turned to him.

Ever since the 'incident' in the cave everyone else had been treating me like I was made of glass. Even Toph didn't know what to say to me. Between my overly emotional reaction to Zuko's betrayal and my spiritual energy outburst they acted like I may break.

I wondered if they had figured out yet about Zuko and me. I bet Toph and Katara were able to put two and two together, but Sokka was a mystery. With my 'friend' in the village, and the tears when he joined Azula the conclusion wasn't hard to figure out.

"So my children tell me that you are connected with the Avatar Kyoshi..."

"Yeah," I scoffed slightly at his words, "your kids or Bato."

"Ahh," he sighed, looking out over the churning black waters and the desolate grey sky, "you two didn't get along from what I've heard?"

"Not really," I grumbled, twisting my face into a scowl. I wasn't really fond of water tribe men anymore, or maybe any man.

"Well what my children did tell me was your little shining moment against the fire nation children," he said, ignoring my sour tone. Take a hint buddy.

"Yeah, tried to get into the spirit world but got interrupted. Turns out that left me with some energy left over that gave me freaky powers," I said.

"And you were able to match two of the most powerful fire benders you age," he mused. Is this what having a dad was like, because this guy was really not helping.

"Yeah I guess," I muttered and stared at a point in the distance, signalling the conversation was over. He sighed and began to walk away, but when he was halfway across the deck he turned back to me.

"Oh and Amara, don't get too worked up about it. You can never really trust those fire nation types," he called before disappearing back below deck. I groaned deeply, was that supposed to make me feel any better?

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I spent the rest of the night in my room. SIlently remembering the events. I only opened the door to get dinner from Katara, who gave me a sympathetic look before I thanked her and shut my door.

I felt nauseated when I looked at the food and decided to lay down on my bed and try to sleep. I tossed and turned and soon fell into a fever dream.

I dreamt of every interaction Zuko and I ever had. When I first fought him, when he captured me, when we met up again in Ba Sing she, the kisses we shared, and his betrayal. How he refused to look at me.

I shot up, a cold sweat all on me. I ran into the bathroom that was in my room and threw up. Although not a lot because I hadn't eaten any dinner.

I looked at myself in the mirror and saw a broken girl, who was weak and let her heart get broken. I felt hot tears prickle in my eyes and start to spill down. I felt so stupid and disgusting. How could I have ever trusted him? After everything that we had done I threw away my common sense just to fuck a cute guy and bring myself pure pleasure.