Tinder - [Lando Norris]

2.7 || the hurt

        Dagmar was in her own little world while she was trying to get through the heartbreak of the breakup with her first boyfriend. And it hadn't even been a serious, fighting breakup. It was the best decision for the both of them, yet that didn't take away the hurt she was feeling. He had been right about everything, however the actual words "I think we should break up" hurt more than she ever thought they would. Dagmar put up a daily schedule for herself, started virtual yoga classes to take her mind of everything and to relax. She woke up early and did her university work, not wanting to let the whole situation distract her from the her study, which meant a lot to her as well. Dagmar returned to her lectures and seminars after the exam period and resit period. She kept the resit period, in which she was off, free for an eventual travel to Lando's races, but in the end she stayed at home anyway. She thought of flying back to Norway, however she felt more like being on her own for a while.

She told herself she was going to be fine, that this would be good for her. If she got over Lando soon, she wouldn't feel hurt because she missed him so much. Dagmar really wanted to work towards that. She kept in the back of her mind that they could still see each other, maybe for lunch or dinner or maybe he'd visit the burgerrestaurant with Carlos. The month after the break up they hadn't had any contact at all. She had been keeping up with his results, she was still watching his races and supporting him. Dagmar felt like they had been mature about breaking up, even though they were so young and somewhere she felt proud of that. Maybe they were too young to be in a relationship. Perhaps it was just the 'right person, wrong time' kind of situation. Dagmar zoned back in when the tube announced her stop at the London University and she grabbed her bag by its handles, standing up from the seats and making her way to the door. She squeezed herself out and turned her music up a little louder while walking up the steps to the exit.

The fresh air whirled around her when she crossed the road and walked the last block to university. She hadn't talked to Sarah about it at all and she already cringed at the thought of having to explain her break up with Lando. She hoped Sarah decided to skip the lecture today. Dagmar walked into the university building and took the couple stairs to the floor of her lecture hall. Unfortunately, Sarah already sat in their usual spot and Dagmar couldn't do anything else but sit down next to her. "Hey girl". Sarah chirped, looking up from her phone next. "Wow, you look thrashed, did he rail you th-...". "We broke up, Sarah". Dagmar cut her off before she could start more jokes about if they had sex a lot this weekend. "I haven't spoken to him for the past four weeks". Dagmar said without looking at her friend as she got her laptop on the table. "I'm sorry". Sarah muttered. "Do you want to talk about it?". She asked next, sensing Dagmar was having a hard time. "Not really". Dagmar shook her head. "But thanks". She said and the girls were silent next, for a change both of them focussing on the lecture.

Sarah didn't really know how to comfort her friend and Dagmar clearly showed off she didn't want to be social at all. Sarah has never had a connection alike Dagmar and Lando's and she didn't know what it was like to lose that connection either. She decided to give her the space and time she needed to feel better, which she hoped Dagmar eventually would.

The person who did understand her was Jessie, her colleague. Jessie's boyfriend worked in the army and was send out on missions often, which left her alone. And Dagmar could understand that she was left with even more worries than Dagmar was. She found comfort in speaking about it with Jessie and Dagmar hoped that it would help to get her through processing their breakup more quickly. The two went out for lunch today and sat on the opposite of each other. "So, you're still seeing him on like, Instagram?". Jessie asked, taking a sip of her mug of tea. "We still follow each other and have each other's numbers". Dagmar shrugged. "I think it would be childish to unfollow and delete all the pictures". She added. "But a downside of it is that you still 'see his face' every day". She quoted to her colleague. "Well, yeah". Dagmar chuckled. "It's not like I want to delete him out of my life, it's just that we never fell out of love with each other. We never fought or argued, we just had to break it off because of our lives".