Days rolled swiftly because right at this moment, I am back at my first home. I had fun bonding with my family especially with mommy Althea. She really makes sure that we'd make good memories together. Hindi pa man nagtatagal ay miss ko na agad sila.
I am busy looking up at the starry sky above while I am sitting at a wooden chair in our home's garden, having this confused feelings of mine. Up until now ay hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung sino ba talaga ang mas nakakalamang.
Instead of studying for the next sem just like what I always do, I opted to have an alone time with myself to understand my feelings more. I am not good with identifying my own feelings especially if it involves a romantic one, or maybe I know for myself but my mind couldn't fully comprehend it.
I can still vividly see how these past few days had gone for me.
Lumayo muna ako sa kanilang dalawa upang makapag-isip ako but my luck was never my ally, pinuntahan ako rito ni Kit noong isang araw. He dragged me somewhere. He rented the whole ice skating rink just for the two of us. Dahil sa ayokong mag-solo kahit sino man sa kanilang dalawa ay minabuti ko na ring tawagan si Lay. And luckily, he agreed.
"Let's start, Ven," nakangiting aya ni Kit nang makapagsuot na kami ng ice skates.
Nakaupo pa rin ako sa bench kaya inilahad niya sa akin ang kanyang kanang kamay. I immediately accepted it pero dahil hindi ako bihasa sa ganito ay muntik pa akong ma-out of balance pero buti na lang ay agad niya akong nasalo.
I slammed gently into his hard chest. I stayed there for a couple of seconds at kung hindi pa nagsalita si Kit ay hindi pa ako makakalayo sa kanya.
Gosh! My cheeks are burning red right now.
Nakakahiya!
"Ayos ka lang ba?" he asked as he keeps on capturing my gaze but I decided to turn it away from him.
"I-I'm fine," I softly said.
He then nodded at my response.
"Tara?" aya niyang muli sa akin at akmang hihilahin ang wrist ko pero sinubukan kong pabigatin ang sarili ko upang hindi niya ako madala.
He turned to me with confusement on his face.
"Ah... ano kasi..." saad ko ng hindi man lang makatingin sa kanya.
I can feel his engrossed stare on me.
"I invited Lay to join with us," I said and I took a glance on him.
Nagbuntong-hininga siya at kahit kita ko ang disappointment sa mga mata niya ay nakuha niya pa ring ngitian ako. For that moment, I suddenly feel guilty about it. I know that my reason is valid for doing such but I can't help to feel hurt also as I saw him hurting because of me once more.
Bakit kasi sa dinami-dami pa ng mga tao sa mundo ay kailangan pa namin mahulog sa isang kaibigan?
It is scary and at the same time sad.
But if love is really stronger, I guess I can take a risk just for us to get the love we deserve.
"Nasaan na raw siya?" nakangiti niyang tanong.
Why does he needs to be this understanding?
Why does he needs to pretend that everything is fine even though we know that it isn't?
How can someone like me so cruel by hurting him over again and again?
"Malapit na raw siya," sagot ko at tumango naman siya.
After a few more minutes, we saw Lay walking towards us. The awkward atmosphere is very obvious that any person will be able to feel it.
Is my decision wrong?
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Don't Cry
Teen FictionThe second book of 'Don't Go'. When Lay left Venice, her heart was shattered into pieces. She keeps on questioning what made him decide to crash the hope she had on the love that she thought would last. Yet, she thought wrong. She was left alone mis...
