Don't Cry

Prologue

Sometimes in life, when you thought that you finally have the chance to grasp the happiness you desire for a long time, destiny played a trick once again. It left your hand grasping on nothing.

I am in a beautiful meadow, together with the person I love the most. Lay looks at me with his glistening eyes and fascinating smile. He held my hand and intertwined our fingers together.

Tiningnan ko iyon ng ilang segundo pagkatapos ay ibinalik ko ang tingin sa kanya at ngumiti. He nodded his head, and together, we walk around the meadow with the sunrays hitting our skin.

Patuloy lamang kami sa paglakad at nang makaramdam na ng pagod ay pinili naming magpunta sa maliit na buhay kubo sa gilid at umupo sa kahoy na upuan sa labas no'n. We were busy looking at the field. We were busy appreciating its beauty. The greenland is too refreshing to stare at together with the lively yellow wildflowers as they dance with the soft wind.

No one was speaking. We are just enjoying the tranquility of the place.

This is such a place where felicity and hope lies. There's no problems to face, no heartaches to mend and no bruises of life to heal. I wish we just stay in this place forevermore.

I placed my head on his shoulder and he never even flinched a bit. I only heard him chuckle a little. Tinoon ko ang mata sa kanyang mga daliri at pinaglaruan ko iyon.

"I love you, Lay," I whispered, hoping that he will be able to hear it.

I am with him, yet why does my heart feels so melancholic?

Why does he seems so distant?

Nang gumalaw siya ay nabitawan ko ang kanyang mga daliri. Inangat ko ang aking ulo upang tumingin sa kanya. His eyes are now locked with mine. Those mysterious eyes that have a thousands words to say yet it remains unsaid. I tried but I couldn't decipher what are those.

He placed his palms on my cheeks and I close my eyes when I felt his tender lips on my forehead. I opened it again and I saw him smile — a sorrowful one.

"I'm sorry, Mira." Those are the words he said before he started fading away.

"Lay," I called his name yet he doesn't answered.

"Lay," I called him again but this time, it is a bit louder than the first one for him to hear me. And again, I got no response in return.

"Lay!" I shouted.

The meadow I saw earlier was converted into the four sides of my room.

"Ven, ayos ka lang ba?" tanong ni Kit na siyang agad dumalo sa akin.

It hurts.

It hurts to know that I could only be with him because of a dream. A dream that I know will never happen.

"Ven, magsalita ka naman. Nag-aalala na ako sa 'yo," ani Kit at imbis na sagutin siya ay nagsimula nang tumulo ang mga luha sa aking mga mata.

I felt his warm arms encircled on me as I continue on crying endlessly.

Kung pwede lang sanang hindi na magising sa isang napakagandang panaginip dahil alam kong ang buhay na wala siya ang naghihintay sa akin. If only he was here with me right now. If only he never left. Maybe, we are happy together right now.

It pains me to think about the endless only ifs...because the truth is, I am still hoping for him to come back. The hope within my heart may wither yet it will never be gone.

Even so, I may not admit it, I am still hoping for that day to come. The day that I will be able to look at his face again. I will be able to hear him call my name. And hug him so tight just like way back then.

Wala man kasiguraduhan, patuloy pa rin akong naghihintay at umaasa sa kanyang pagbabalik. Nagbalik na siya dati, maaring bumalik siyang muli.

Nang kumalma na ako ay pinakawalan na rin ako ni Kit. He looked at me with pain and sadness in his eyes that are mirrored with mine.

"Alam kong wala akong karapatan na sabihin kung ano ang dapat mong maramdaman. Gusto kong magalit kay Yves dahil siya ang dahilan ng mga pag-iyak mo sa nagdaang isa't kalahating taon. If only I could do something to erase all the pain in your heart, but it sucks to think that I can't do anything. I can only lend you my shoulders for you to cry on.

"Even how many times I should beg to God just for you not to cry again, I will do it. Ven, just please... don't cry," halos nagmamakaawa na niyang saad.

I looked at him and once again, a tear fell from my left eye.

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