Don't Cry

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"I know you are hurting lately but please allow us to help you cope with your loss," malungkot na sambit ni Misha habang kami ay nasa aking kulay cream na silid.

I looked at her and all I can see is Paris. Halos parehas sila ng ugali. Halos parehas din sila ng paraan kung paano manamit. I know she's not Paris but I can't help to see my other sister in her.

Agad akong tumayo at ikinulong siya sa isang yakap. I miss her very much.

Both of them.

I miss Paris, the sister that I knew and grew up with. Kasama ko siyang naglaro at tumakbo sa buong kabahayan nang kami ay mga bata pa. Kasama ko siya upang ipagdiwang ang mahahalagang araw sa buhay namin. We've been through a lot as sisters, treated each other as friends and love one another like there's no wall separating us.

It is just sad to think that I can no longer hug her like this. I can no longer feel the warm of her hands. I can no longer hear the loudness of her voice.

And at the same time, I also miss Misha. She's the sister that I never knew I had. We met and became friends before. Ngayon naiintindihan ko na kung bakit magaan ang loob ko sa kanya unang beses ko pa lamang siyang makita. Kapatid ko pala siya.

Kung kinuha na sa akin ng langit ang pagkakataong maiparamdam ko kay Paris ang pagmamahal ng isang ate, hindi ko hahayaang hindi ko iyon maibigay kay Misha. Destiny brought us together again and I won't let this chance go to waste. I promise that I will be the best sister she could ever have.

She gave me her sweet smile that melts my heart once we broke our hug.

"I'm glad na sister pala talaga kita. When I met you, I just wish that you will be my real sister. But I know it is impossible. Kaya nang malaman ko ang truth, I am one of the happiest person alive. I couldn't believe it that my wish just came true."

I immediately wiped the tear that fell from my eye before I decided to speak. "I am sorry kung naramdaman mo na hindi ako masaya nang malaman ko ang totoo. I am very much delighted dahil sa wakas nakilala ko na ang totoo kong ina, bonus pa na kapatid kita." I paused then sighed before I continue. "It is just the timing is really bad. I just lost my sister not too long ago. I lost Paris that's why I felt that I need to shut the world out."

"I understand. I know how much you love her. I'm sure, she is happy for you because at last, you found yourself a family."

I smiled but this time, an authentic one. "I know."

"Ate Venice, pinilit ko sila mommy na kumain tayo sa labas ngayon but if you don't like, we can just make pa-deliver na lang ng food."

Maybe, it is really time for me to let go. It doesn't mean that I will let go of my memories with Paris, I just needed to fully let her go in order to bring peace to her soul.

And I guess, kailangan ko ring bigyan ang sarili ko ng pagkakataong maging masaya kasama ang bago kong pamilya. I wanted to spend time with them especially my mother.

"Sure. I would love that we go eat outside."

Her eyes widen in excitement. "For real? Magbo-bonding tayo as a whole family?"

I nodded at her and she immediately went outside of my room running while calling mommy to tell her the news.

I chuckled at her reaction while I am still looking at the open doorway.

After a couple of minutes, I decided to start preparing for myself. Naligo agad ako at pagkatapos ay sinoot ang blue and white striped dress na ibinigay sa akin ni Misha noong isang araw. Kahit hindi ko siya nasamahan sa pagshopping ay talagang ipinambili niya pa rin ako ng mga gamit.