I open my eyes to find myself in a room that I don't recognize, everything in here is white: the walls, the floor, the bed I was lying on, the little table next to the window. The room is small, but really clean giving me a hospital vibe.
I try to stand up and remember what happened to me, but my head is spinning and I don't have the force to pull myself up. I watch my own body trying to figure something out, I wear my black jeans and my 'Atmosphere' t-shirt, but my sneakers are not on and I can see my toes.
What the hell happened to me? I ask myself. Where am I? I close my eyes trying to remember.
Suddenly, a pair of green eyes appear behind my shut eyes: a beautiful color, but a criminal look on them and everything comes back to me: the guys with green eyes and the beautiful woman that was with them, the black dressed guy calling me a monster, hurting me, me crying on the concrete, he threatening to kill me, his touch soft on my hurt leg, my panic attack and then hot hands covering my mouth while some voice were arguing about what to do with me.
I'm up trying to get on my feet as fast as I can trying to run, to save myself. I don't have to second guess that they took me with them, they kidnapped me and they are sure as hell going to hurt me. I need to escape, I need to call the cops and get the fuck out of here.
But my legs don't listen to me. As soon as I touch the floor trying to stand up I hit the ground with a horrible noise causing some medical equipment that was next to my bed fall too. I didn't saw the equipment. My right leg hurts like hell and so does my hands, when I look at them I realize that my fingers are all bruised. I remember starting to dig in the concrete while screaming and my fingers suffered the consequences.
-What the hell did...?! the dark dressed guy appears in the room, his eyes as green as I remember, but looking even better in the light.
I don't see the same criminal look on his face as he sees me standing on the ground, he even seems to smile at me. I try to put as much distance as I can between us, but it's pointless, he reaches me instantly.
-I am not going to hurt you, he says with a calming voice. I'm sorry for last night, Anays, I promise you no one is going to hurt you.
I don't say a thing, but I don't trust him, if he wouldn't want to hurt me I would be in my bed right now, no God knows where.
-I will carry you on to your bed and then I will explain everything to you, I promise.
He tries to reach me but I push his hand away feeling another panic attack getting closer.
-Please, don't touch me, I say sounding broken. Please, just... just, don't touch me, ok?
-I will not hurt you, I promise...
-I...I don't believe you, you kidnapped me, you tried to kill me... Who are you and what do you want from me? I don't have money or...
-I know, he says looking into my eyes. My name is Dimitri, my friends from last night are Dara and Josh, we are very sorry for what happened last night. We didn't take you for your money, but because you... Look, it is more complicated and the story is not short or easy for you, I run my checks on you and I know your life was not easy and it will not get easier with what I am about to tell you. That's why I need you to sit on that bed and listen to me, ok?
He reaches for me again, and I push him away again because of last night, because of who I am. He looks confused and sad.
-I... I can't stand you to touch me, I say looking at my feet. I can't stand guys touching me for days after a panic attack, I say with tears in my eyes remembering just how broken I am, how much they broke me.
-Oh, he says anger darkening his beautiful features, because I can see on his face that he understands why this happens to me. I'm so sorry, he says giving me space. I didn't know, I didn't find that in your file. Fuck, you must be in shock after what I did to you last night. Fuck!
He seems genuinely concern for me and it's a strange feeling to see someone concerning about me, even this horrible person who hurt me.
-Do you want me to call for my friend, Dara? She is a woman, he says like Dara could even be a guy's name. Will you feel better if she helps you on the bed?
-Could you...
-Yes, sure, tell me what to do, he says seeing that I don't finish my sentence.
-Could you give me the chair over there? I say pointing to a chair on the other side of the room. I can lift myself up if I have something for support.
He did as I ask and takes one step back giving me space but not getting his eyes of me while I stand up. My feet are shaking threatening to fail me again.
-If you fall, can I catch you? he looks so different from the guy that tormented me, concern, caring.
-I will not fall. It's not my first rodeo,I say faking a smile, while sitting on the bed. Thank you, Dimitri!
I don't know why I am thanking him, I would not be in this situation if he wouldn't put me in it, he is responsible for what happened to me. But looking at him now he seems to regret and then it hits me.
He thought I was someone else! That's it! He thought I was another person, that's what all this is about. I tell myself that he realized he made a mistake and he will apologize and let me go. I feel relieved, hopeful even.
-Anays, I am so sorry for last night, he starts and I feel suddenly safe. I didn't want to hurt an innocent person, it's not something that I would ever to.
-It's ok, I find myself saying. It could have happened to anyone, you thought I was someone else... I... I understand, but please, could you let me go now? I want to go back to my friend and I promise I will not tell anyone about what happen.
-I... You really don't know who you are, don't you? What you are? he says and all my hopes disappear.
-What do you mean what I am?
-Look, I have never found someone like you in all my years of working... I have never found a witch who wouldn't know what she is. I have never found a witch who wouldn't kill or at least try to kill us on sight.
-A witch? Are you on drugs, Dimitri? Kill someone? What the fuck are you talking about?
He looks at me with big green eyes, putting his hands on each side of my body, careful not to touch me. He leans close to me and says the words that are going to change all my life.
-Anays, you are a starwitch.

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Finding my Leelen [completed]
FantasyI'm weak and broken, tormented by monsters that keep reaching for me, touching my body, hurting me, living marks on my skin and soul. I don't know how it feels to sleep without waking up in the middle of the night sweating, incapable of defending m...