Finding my Leelen [completed]

Chapter 4 You decide who you are

-Yes, sure, and you... Dimitri, I say trying to remember his name, you are Prince Charming, right? I might be dreaming... Yes, that's it! I am dreaming, I've stayed too late last night reading and now I am dreaming fantasy stories. Unbelievable, Cyra was right, I am losing my mind because of too much fantasy books,I cant' distinguish reality over fantasy.

I keep talking like this for about 20 minutes, making possible scenarios in my head, totally ignoring the guy in front of me, my kidnapper. But when I finally look at him, he is completely still, his eyes measuring me from head to toe like I am some kind of a mystery he has to solve. I shout my mouth and wait for him to tell me something. He doesn't say anything so I have to ask.

-You were joking, right?

-I am sorry, but I don't joke. I can imagine it is not easy to find out something like that, but...

-How can I be a witch? I have no power, nothing strange ever happened to me, I am the most normal and boring person I know...

-You're not a witch, you are a starwitch, that's different. A witch gets her power from the life around her, a starwitch on the other hand is getting her power from inside her. A witch powers are limited while a starwitch's powers knows no limit.

-You are not kidding, right? he looks at me like I might be a 4 year old girl starting to cry, which I basically am. But I have no powers... I never had!

-That's because you didn't perform the initiation ritual.

He must see on my face that I have no idea what he's talking about because he starts to explain.

-For a starwitch the initiation ritual is basically killing something, it doesn't matter if it is a human or an animal. In the instant you will kill something the power will come to you, considering you are 20 and there are a few records about starwitches, I don't know if you will have the power of a young witch or a an adult one.

-What are you talking about? I will never kill something! You are crazy!

I start to talk louder, my heart is pounding to get out of my chest and I feel another panic attack coming to me. I didn't have so many panic attacks in ages... He sees that I am panicking because he starts to speak softly to me.

-Calm down, Anays. Please, calm down. Breath in, breath out. That's right, keep breathing.

I brace myself and look at him, somehow he manages to help me calm down whispering constantly 'breath in, breath out' and 'calm down'. I listen to him.

-How do you know all of this? Are you a starwitch too? So are your friends?

He laughs looking sad and avoiding my eyes.

-No, we are warriors, we are the ones who kill witches to keep this world safe.

My eyes widen and the little safety I felt is gone. He is going to kill me after all, that's why he brought me here, to kill me slowly, no eyes to witnesses, no one to hear my scream.

Looking at him now I can understand what he means with warrior, he looks powerful, his body strong beneath his casual clothes. I can see the muscles on his arms and his back, if he wants I bet he could break each bone in my body with his bare hands. I have no escape, if he wants me dead, I will be dead. There's no reason to fight back, I don't know where I am, I don't know how to defend myself and, considering what he told me, I don't even know who I am. I might at least die with my head up.

-Be done with it then, I say looking him directly in the eyes.

He raises his right hand to show it to me and slowly touches my cheek brushing away one tear. He looks beautiful in the light of the room, with eyes green as the grass and lips to die for, his hair is black as the night and frames his face beautifully. He breaths in and out so close to me, that if I would move just one inch our noses would touch, but I don't feel afraid, I don't feel any kind of panic attack, what would be the point? I am going to die anyway.