You Live And Learn

02 | wishes and worries

         Well, it's now or never. I got her attention, so all I have to do now is stop being a wuss and ask her. 

        "So, I was thinking, if you're free on Saturday..." I began.

       "Yeah?" She responds turning her head a little to left. The words just don't want to escape my lips.  I'm probably not going to get an opportunity like this again so I force the words out.

   "If it's cool with you, would you wanna go out that day?" The moment the words are out of my mouth, my breathing hitched. Camille takes a few moments to consider what I just ask of her. 

   "Sure, what did you had in mind?" On the inside, I did a cartwheel of pure joy. But, I don't know what to do. I didn't think I would make it this far. 

   "I was thinking of getting lunch then a movie?"

   "All right that's cool. I'll give you my number so you can give me the details. Give me your phone." Well, that happened fast. To her request, I handed over my phone. In about a minute, she was done setting up her number and gave me my phone back. "Okay, see you later Alonzo! I'll be looking forward to this little date!" Camille gives me a small smile and walks away leaving me to rejoice internally for my victory. 

She actually said yes. For a brief moment, I was paused in my position, replaying the precious moments over and over in my head. After I got over myself, I decide to leave before one of my friends come to pester me about what happened. 

Walking home, I couldn't resist smiling. This is up there as one of my best days. I had a delicious breakfast, walked to school with my crush, had an uneventful school day (which is a good thing) and my crush said yes to go out with me. In the words of Future, life is good.

When I got home, I finished the work that's due tomorrow with some difficulty.  Granted I had an entire week to do it, but I couldn't be bothered. Now that my homework was finished, it's time to text Camille. The thing is, I have no idea what to text her. Should I be witty? Or should I be serious? The possibilities are endless. The safe route is probably the best. 

"Hey..," I started to write, but stop. My hands started to tremble for some reason. 'Bro, it's just a text, it's not that deep,' I thought to myself. So after mustering the energy, the text was sent. I rest my phone on my bed and took a breath. It was only a minute later when I felt my phone vibrated. Surprisingly, it was Camille. This is an unexpected development. I was thinking it would take a while to get a response, but here we are.

"Hey Alonzo, what's up?"  I was going to reply to her saying "thinking about you", but we're not twelve-year-olds. 

" I just finished some work and decided to hit you up. What about you?"

"Oh that's cool, I was just thinking when you were going to text me."  Oh, this is powerful news to me.  My blatant lack of experience fails me because I don't know how to respond.

"Glad to hear it, you have any place, in particular, you wanted to go on Saturday?"

"Um, not really. I'm sure wherever you pick it'll be a fun time."  Those words made my entire night. She has faith in me and I hope I won't be letting her down.

"Okay, give me some time so I can make it worthwhile."

"That's fine by me, I'll be waiting," followed by a smiling emoji. I decided to leave it like that because that's a good way to end the conversation. 

So, now I have to use even more brain cells to make this date memorable. A thousand ideas swam into my head, but none formulated. Even though I want to enjoy myself, the date is really for her. It is important to me that she has fun, and maybe we can go even further than that. 

'You know that's never gonna happen' my conscience says to me. I really don't appreciate how my own subconscious doesn't believe in my success, but I'll try not to dive into negative thoughts. I already had a lot of them in the past, during that time during my life. They're not needed anymore. I leap into my bed that was patiently waiting for me and was out like a light ten seconds later.

Daybreak arrives in a blur. It's finally Friday, the best day of the week. That usually would be the case, but I still haven't figured out what to do tomorrow. I was deep in thought and before I knew it, I'm at school. While thinking about ideas, I locked eyes with Camille as I stood at the school doors.

 She was walking with her friends and her eyes caught mine. She blessed me with a  dazzling smile and her friends immediately started to laugh as they went inside the tall building. I wonder what that was about. You never know with the female kind, I just hope it was something pleasant. 

That smile did something to me, it hit me right in the clavicle(a very special place). It was at this moment I knew, I wanted to make her happy tomorrow. I'll think of something special for her and make it an enjoyable experience. She deserved happiness and I think I can supply that for her. Whatever tomorrow brings, it can't possibly be worse than Drake's dancing skills. For once, I'm actually planning something for someone else with the utmost attention. It's going to go well, I can't afford for it to be nothing else.