Hunger

Hunger 11/27/2012 Tuesday

Hunger

By Mark Alan Trimeloni

Continued on 11/27/2012

My name is John and i'm a food addict.

Nov 27th 2012

12:17pm

Today should prove to be a challenge.  I am getting together with my mom to walk.  But the weather is not so good and walking may not be what we are doing.  When I get with my mom, we have a tendancy to go out to eat.  I will have to say no.  I must stick to my original diet plan.  I've already broken it once by eating the food left over from before the diet began.  I did not break the diet, but control is the key. 

Last night wasn't so bad.  I have minor food cravings, but nothing major so far.  That will come.  I have hunger all the time now, but it is not anything too intense.  That will come.  I keep getting thoughts about different foods.  Most recent was an idea to pick up a pizza for today and then resume the diet tomarrow.  Not gonna happen.  The most enticing one is to eat with my mom today and just not mention it in this journal.  That one has some power.  Socializing over food is something we Italians are known for.  Food has always played an important role in connection with how my family relates to each other.  I imagine it's the same for a lot of other people.  I have no plans to eat with my mom today.  If I do, I will confess to it in this journal.  I'm hoping to be strong.

Let's cover some positives to give me a little strength to resist food today.  I am no longer going to the bathroom nearly as much as I used to.  I have more time for other things by not having to get food, prepare it, eat, then go to the bathroom.  I don't have as much shortness of breath.  I feel better with increased energy returning to my body.  Living without over eating is much simpler than all the work to sustain a food addiction.  This is what I am referring to when I say it is much easier to diet than it is to keep eating to excess.  Same with any addiction.  The short term high of satisfying your cravings is far worse than the long term benefits of not doing so.  So why do we do it?  Maybe i'll find an answer as the diet continues.

7:51pm

I got together with my mom and walked.  There was no pressure to eat anything.  I told her I was dieting.  So with that out of the way I came home.  Hungry most of the day.  I ate two hot dogs, two slices of bread, and the elbow macaroni.  That took the hunger away for now.  So today was a good day.  Let’s hope tomorrow is the same.