Hunger

Hunger 11/29/2012 Thursday

Hunger

By Mark Alan Trimeloni

Continued on 11/29/2012

My name is John and I'm a food addict.

November 29th 2012

8:38am

Well I've made it to day four.  Not much to report.  I've been eating only the diet food.  Luckily, I haven't been having the severe hunger pains that I've had with most of my other diets.  I wonder if this is because my resolve is stronger.  I think a lot of it has to do with me being distracted.  I took on a job as apartment manager in the complex where I live.  This has taken up most of my free time.  I don't have the time to think about food.  So I'm glad this job opportunity came along when it did.

I wish there was more to report.  We'll see where the day takes us.

Positives about dieting.  More time due to not going to the grocery to get food, then bringing it home and putting it away, then preparing it, throwing out the wrapping the food was in and then eating, followed by going to the bathroom, and eventually taking out the trash.  Seems like a lot of work for a short period of enjoyment.  I don't feel full, but I don't feel desperately hungry either.  Not even moderately hungry.  My body is adjusting to the change physically quite well.  Even the mental torture of being tempted to break off the diet is low.  I have brief moments where I think about having things.  The most recent a few minutes before I started writing in the journal today.  I thought about going to a diner in town while I did my laundry.  The apartment has on site laundry, but it's slow.  I prefer to go into town to the only laundromat and get my clothes done quicker.  I don't wash clothes for up to 3 months so it piles up.  I need the power of multiple washers and dryers to get it done.  And there is this diner I could spend time at while the clothing is in the washer or dryer.  There really is no need for that.  I can just come back to the apartment and wait.  I'm only five minutes away.

So as you can see, it seems like my mind isn't even trying.  I expected more of a fight before this.  A new ploy perhaps.  Or possibly because of these journals.  I know the battle is far from over.  Once you let your guard down, the mind will take advantage and lead me astray.  That's why I list atleast one positive each day to give me the strength to carry on.  Seeing in writing all the work that I've put into keeping the weight on, I realize how easy going without food is.  It really is the easier lifestyle.  Helps to keep an eye on that fact.

Well I have to meet some new tenants today and see if we can rent them an apartment.  I'll be back later to get caught up.