Hunger

Hunger 12/2/2012 Sunday

Hunger

By Mark Alan Trimeloni

Continued on 12/2/2012

My name is John and I'm a food addict.

December 2nd 2012

4:26pm

Yesterday I couldn't stop thinking about the large pizza with pepperoni and bacon. I wanted it real bad as the evening progressed. Kept having thoughts of going out and picking it up. Just taking another day off the diet. Two days off just for the weekend. I would never have to mention it in my diet journal. No one would ever know. I didn't do it. But it was fun thinking about it.

Today was a close one. I got a call from my mom telling me my dad picked up some of the amish pepperoni rolls I love. Two bags of them with three each inside. I love these rolls. I decided before I went over to pick them up that I would eat them all and get a regular soda to enjoy them to their max. I went to my parent's and got the rolls fully intending to break off the diet just to have them. After all, my dad doesn't get these for me that often. And what would be the harm as long as I didn't eat anything else. So I get there and check out the other items at my parent's house. While my apartment has nothing but the diet foods to eat, it is quite different at my parent's place. There are all types of goodies just for the asking. I notice some donuts and my mom says I can have some. I tell her no. I take a bottle of soda from the fridge and put it in the bag I am taking the pepperoni rolls home in. I let my mom know my intentions and tell her it's because I don't get these that often and it's not like I can freeze them til' Friday my Victory day when I can eat them without breaking the diet. She informs me they can be frozen. This ruins everything. I now have no excuse for eating them right away. I can freeze them and have them later when the diet allows. I don't know whether to hug her or curse her. I tell her I can freeze them and return the soda as well. No use for it now. Thanks mom.

I get home and decide to replace the mashed potatoes with two pepperoni rolls (see video). They run about 250 calories each and I can fit them into the diet by moderating them. I am learning something new everyday. Seems I am capable of moderation. I will have the usual diet foods tonight two hotdogs with bread and finish the third pepperoni roll tomorrow. The other three I put in the freezer until I can have them. So disaster avoided. I am still on the diet and looking forward to my Victory day at the end of the week. Let's hope my will power will hold up. These are the hard times. The physical hunger has passed and now it's all mental.