Flying with Karasuno

Daichi Sawamura 4

Y/n pov

Daichi looks surprise, "Sure, yeah." Grabbing his things he walks with her to a bench outside, "You don't have to tell me, you know," he makes sure, "You don't have to talk about it, because of (X/bff)." I shook my head, "I think it's time I talked to someone, I just want you to be the first person to hear it." He smiles, "Okay, I'll listen until you're done."

Taking a deep breath I start to talk about everything: My parents, Ukai, Keishin, my middle school days, and what really happened between me and (X/bff). "Wow, I didn't know you had that kind of past," Daichi thinks deeply, "Did you mean what you said when you yelled at Tanaka?" I think back to my words: I don't care about them, the only good thing they did for me was staying out of my life.

"Yeah," I look up to see a bright and starry night, "It's not that I don't love them, I do. I'm also thankful to them for giving me life, but having them in my life during that mess would have just complicated things." Daichi looks at me in amazement, "You're holding a lot in, aren't you." I flinch at his words and look at him, "I don't know what you mean." He hugs me, "You've been facing things all alone, with nobody on your side." I shake my head, "I had some people who cared for me, Keishin and the old man. I even made friends with these ladies that run a restaurant, they convinced me teach their kids volleyball. They convinced me to continue practice volleyball even though I felt like giving up completely."

He laughs with me still in his arms, "I mean, you've been fooling yourself and other that you're okay with being alone. I've seen how you keep us at arms length, you don't tell us what's really on your mind. You've been holding yourself back when it comes to telling others what the real loneliness in your heart is, the loneliness of love." My eyes start to well up, "That's so dumb, I don't need love from them or anyone else." It became harder to hold back my tears, "I'm perfectly fine being at arms length." (Meaning she doesn't care for people's love like in friendships. It's not specifically saying love in a romantic way)

He pulled me closer, "You can cry." I burst into tears, soaking his shirt. He made sure to hold me close, occasionally rubbing my head or back. For some reason the tears wouldn't stop, I cried and cried the more I thought about how I wanted to get closer to people but I just couldn't. I was scared of being used and throw away again. After awhile I started to calm down, I close my eyes and nuzzle my head in Daichi's chest, "Thank you." His scent filled my nose, it was really comforting. If time could stop, I would chose this moment to make it. 

"I want you to know something," Daichi starts to speak in a soft tone, "You don't have to keep me or the team at arms length anymore. We promised to be by your side" I look up and smile at him, "I'm so happy I told you, you always know what to say." Chuckling he kisses my forehead and let go of me to stand up, "Let's get you home, you need to get some rest after all of this excitement." Offering his hand to me I take it and we enjoy the stars as we continue our walk