WRATH | SDS Present ✔ (TO BE EDITED)

Chapter 32

I cleared my throat before entering to the flower shop. A bell rang when I pushed the door so I got the attention of the old lady. She stopped watering the flowers and went towards me so I tried to paste a smile on my lips.

"Good morning, Ma'am. I'm Baby." Naka-ngiting bati nya.

"Good morning din po, Ms. Baby. I'm Daniella." Bati ko pabalik kaya ngumiti sya ulit bago ako iginaya sa may counter.

"Ngayon pa lang kita nakitang napasyal rito." Pag-sisimula nya sa usapan kaya mapait akong ngumiti.

"A friend recommended your shop." Tanging sagot ko kaya tumango sya.

Finn told me this flower shop is the best for the deads. There is this thing about the way this old lady arrange them na parang made-deliver daw ng mga bulaklak ang pagmamahal mo sa namayapa mong mahal.

When she told me that the first time, I literally laughed at her because I know Finn is sentimental but believing in magical stuffs is too much yet here I am, believing in it too.

Today is Doreen's first month of being an angel and it still makes my heart throb in pain. She should be a month old now and according to what I've read, she can be able to recognize sounds, movements and can even see. She should have see every smile I gave her whenever I hold her in my arms. Should have.

Knowing those things only makes it harder for me. I am always having nightmares about that day, every possiblity that might have happened and I just wake up gasping for air because I am crying so hard and my chest is clenching that makes it hard for me to breath, to live and go on in life.

"I don't know anything about flowers." Nahihiyang sabi ko nang abutan nya ako ng catalog.

"Sino ba ang pagbibigyan mo? At ano ang okasyon?" She said in a soft tone so I slightly cleared my throat to stop my tears.

"My baby, Doreen. It's her first month in heaven." Sabi ko sa isang malat na boses dahil sa pag-pigil sa mga luha ko.

Ms. Baby held my hand that's on the counter and gave me an empathic smile.

"I know it's hard pero gusto ko lang sabihin na hindi sya pababayaan ng Panginoon." She said with a small smile so I just smiled in return.

"Sa tingin ko ay bagay kay Doreen ang white lilies at pink carnations." Naka-ngiting sabi nya bago lumabas sa counter para pumunta sa rack ng mga bulaklak.

"Ang mga white lilies ay sumisimbolo sa purity dahil umalis sya sa mundong ito na walang bahid ng kasalanan." She explained while arranging the flowers in a basket. "At ang pink carnations naman ay sumisimbilo ng pagmamahal ng isang babae. Walang makakapantay sa pagmamahal ng isang ina sa kanyang anak at wag kang mag-alala Ma'am Daniella, alam iyon ni Doreen." Dagdag pa nya before glancing at me.

I quickly looked sideways as tears are again, forming in my eyes. Yes, I love her but why do I feel like I didn't show it to her. That no matter what I did to protect her and shower her with love, I still failed.

"Sigurado akong magugustuhan yan ni Doreen." Naka-ngiting sabi ni Ms. Baby sabay abot sa akin ng basket ng bulaklak.

It is indeed beautiful. The combination of white and pink colors is so warm in the eyes and knowing the meanings behind the flowers, warm my heart as well.

"Thank you po, Ms. Baby. I'll visit soon when I visit Doreen again." Sabi ko and didn't wait for my change.

I put on my sunglasses when I started driving to the cemetery. I have an important meeting today with the board and Hugo but I know he knows what the day is today so he will understand my absence.