WRATH | SDS Present ✔ (TO BE EDITED)

Chapter 37

"Hi there, baby." Mahinang sabi ko nang ilagay ang basket ng bulaklak sa taas ng libingan ni Doreen.

Tumalungko ako tapos ay sinindihan ang kandila bago nag-indian seat. The place is slightly dusty and maybe because Xavier cannot visit her so often. He was too busy in his business kasi which I understand.

"Pasko na bukas, Doreen and I won't stop wishing to spend every day with you." Sabi ko pa before wiping away my tear.

"But also, I have to accept the fact that no matter how hard I wish, you won't come back." Iyak ko. "I will move on bringing your memories with me." Dagdag ko pa bago pinunasan ang mga luha ko.

"Before I forgive Xavier, I ask for your forgiveness, for my forgiveness to myself." I said the last thing breathlessly dahil naiiyak na naman ako.

"I need to free myself from the hatred, the anger your death have caused. I want to be truly happy, for you and for myself because all my life, I've been living with material things as my source of happiness."

"But when you came into my life, my definition of happiness changed but you were taken from me so soon that shattered my will to live. But Xavier, your father, thought me that I can be happy again, if only I choose to be happy."

"I decided to that me and Xavier will try to work this out, Doreen. We will do the thing we should've done when you were alive. We will shower each other with the love we deserve and I hope this risk I will take for the last time, is gonna be worth it. This is one thing we can do honor your death."

I wiped my tears before I prayed for my baby's soul. Nanatili lang akong tahimik na naka-upo habang tinitignan ang lapida ng anak ko.

I realized that I should take the risk. Maybe giving Xavier another chance can make me truly happy. Maybe if I give him the forgiveness he deserves, I can forgive myself too.

He earned it and I just hope he won't throw it away so easily.

Pag-pasok ko sa condo ay patay pa ang mga ilaw kahit pa lumalalim na ang gabi. It's been a month since Xavier opened his business and since then, he was so busy but despite that fact, he never failed in making me feel special at the end of the day.

Kapag late syang umuuwi ay may dala syang mga bulaklak o kaya nama'y minsan ay maaga syang gumigising para lang ipag-handa kami ng isang breakfast featuring the petals of roses scattered on the floor.

I did a half bath before I made my way to the kitchen. It's Christmas Eve and I want to make it memorable, especially it is my first time to celebrate it with Xavier.

I cooked some easy dishes before I took out the cake I bought then I arranged it in the table and when I was done, I played some Christmas songs in the vinyl player.

When the front door opened, I saw Xavier's surprised state so a small smile unconsciously appeared in my lips as I stood from the sofa.

"Bakit hindi mo sinabing nagluto ka? Edi sana maaga kong tinapos ang trabaho ko?" Nanghihinayang nyang sabi kaya mabilis akong umiling.

"Okay lang. I know you're busy tsaka sigurado naman akong uuwi ka e." Biro ko kaya bahagya syang napa-iling.

"This just made my stress and worries go away." Malambing nyang sabi and I can't help but to smile while warmth spread across my heart.

Kumunot ang noo ko nang hawakan nya ang dibdib nya at para bang nahihirapan syang huminga. Nag-aalala akong lumapit sa kanya at mas malinaw kong nakita ang bakas ng sakit sa mukha nya kaya dumoble ang pag-aalala ko.

"What's wrong? May masakit ba sa iyo?" I asked panickly and I watched him having a difficulty in breathing.

Mabilis ko syang tinalikuran para sana tumawag ng ambulansya nanag hatakin nya ako sa kanya at nakita kong normal na ulit ang ekspresyon nya.