Seaweed and Wise - Never letting go

Very very important

Hi guys. I know there's pretty much a lot of people that still come and read these, love you, and I feel the responsibility to always tell you that you're loved and that you'll pull through anything and everything and that, believe it, fighting is worth it.
Now especially, I feel that I have to tell you that life is precious and while you often don't have control over it at all it's still yours and just... I am lucky enough that my loved ones are alright, that I can watch out over them, that I can talk and laugh with them... And that I'm healthy and mentally stable and not going down depression lanes. And now I'm not saying that I was always this confident about my feelings... I used to be in bad places when I was younger and that's a part of me and yes I get anxious like any other person or get these stupid small panic attacks from social anxiety, and my energy is being all over the place, but I'm happy and good because I know what I'm at and that I can talk now. I don't bottle up for weeks, I keep it in my head for a few hours and when I'm ready to talk about it, I say it. Everything that's happened to you, it creates who you are... And while you're not supposed to or probably don't love the bad things, you'd never know the opposite really. The bad are just scars upon your beautiful and they fade over time, not disappear, but go out of consciousness, kinda.
Now, what I am rambling about is something that's not fun or cool or special, it's just a part of life... But what I really wanted to get to is that this last week a father of one of my preschool kids was killed in a car crash (plus small town here, everybody knows everybody somehow) and then Camryn Clifford (Cam&Fam, YouTube) announced that her husband, Landon, father to their two babies (a boy that was 19 and barely older than my little sister, and so full of life) had killed himself, and I was just so overwhelmed and sad for those families, but grateful for My family at the same time... I was especially thinking of what a blessing it is, though I don't mean that in a religious way, and it was running through my head that I never in my 21 years of life had a suicidal thought but there aren't people this lucky and they all need to know how they're loved, how they matter, and that their impact on those around them is so great and devastating that it's not the right thing to do in no case, ever. Like the wife of that boy said, if he had thought about it, about the pain he had caused, about what he had robbed of others and himself, he'd never have done it. That's a terrifying thing to hear when there's nothing that could be done more from her as they were the loveliest pair and my real life image of percabeth...
You go and love your family and friends and smile on those who might need it, and be good. You're headstrong and good people if you love Percy Jackson and those heroic ideas of his enough to stick with me here and you need to be Here for others too and in any way do good. Even if it's just visiting your grandma every day so she's not sad and lonely or calling your friends, hanging out with your parents or siblings... Love as viciously as Percy fights for the good and be so extraordinary in all you do. Be yourself and be strong because those around you need it always and maybe now, when so much is happening, more than ever.
I hope you understand what I mean.
Good night or good day... Be the light in the dark ❤️

Note: I'm very much doing great, don't worry if this sounded too deep or different... I just needed to get this off my chest. This is not a statement of sadness but of hoping you think about this and share with others and remember to not worry about worthless things (like when I deleted my whole hard disk with a LOT of data and music etc. right before a 3 hour work conference and kept a straight face without throwing the computer out the window and being sour about it later ☺️😂)
Note to note: before I wrote the first note, this had precisely 666 words 😇😉